Come Bite Me Mutha fuckas
I'm All Out of the Element.
The Pearl of the Orient was good. It's a place where i never foresee myself to be in. With a metaphor i came up with.. "Pork Kong" Yes... another alternative. Pork galore. Well considering the time spent and definitely the money spent there is worthwhile. A shopping craze with a fashion statement to die for. Well going with a turmoiled heart really dampens the whole trip. But with the company of my brother, frenz is is definitely the best.
Nothing could ever beat, fragrant aroma of yes, pork in hong kong. The sensual, traffic light buttons, the yes to-die-for fashion and the ultimate array of dunks. Grr. Deadly for shoppaholics.
Happy Birthday Bro in advance
I guess, the trip to a foreign country was something needed for. For me that is. If i happen to witness my world to crumble right before my eyes (which i think is happening) well, i couldn't say more. Literally, the mind is a whirl. Everything else is just falling out of place. Circumstances made me think to the extreme. Trying so hard to ignore, but instead, it's eating me up from the inside.
Question. Why?
I guess, the question implies to every soul. Doubtfully. I guess i fall in the right shoes, remarks and everything negative else seems to fall right into place for me.
It's really hard to carry on. To foresee it as something as a blessing in disguise is way far for me to perceive it because everything just seems wrong. Nonetheless, the silent cries in my heart would it eat me up eventually. Moments like this, trying to turn to someone is really hard. What else more if everything seems to be going well for other personals. Bombarding them with my anguish and pain, is plain selfish.
Really trying hard to dig out for that silver lining, which i know is somewhere. It takes time but i'll find it someway or another. But this time it's at the worst peak. Running away from everything is not the solution. Bottling it up either. If the family is against me.
What else?
Someone just smack me.
The headaches of my life is really out for me. I'll just live through it.
To live twice, to endure twice.
To be hurt once, you'll get more than once.
The silent cries, the neverending night.
The silent screams, the piercing heart.
No one to turn too, no one to cry too.
The shattered self.
Izk-ed
"....it's hard to endure, the endurance u're living up with...."
-ends the forgiving self. luving my bro, frenz and families ends-
i am back from the orient. Hong Kong.
I am back from the Pearl of the Orient. It was good. I shall rant more about tml but now feast your eyes on the pictorials of my trip.
Click Me! It's The Hong Kong Trip Photos
Just came home from bro's, i'm tired and need my rest. Will be having a sleepover at my bro's tonight. Yay! Nights all!
"....notice me, so my efforts won't be wasted....."
-ends good hell fun. loving my bro, frenz and families ends-
I think i have fallen in love with the 8th World Wonder.
Hello Hongkong
Away from 25/5 ------ 29/5
i damn proud of design sch. grrr yippee!
Officially The First Day Of SCHOOL.
Woke up really darn early today to meet up with ma bro for sch. Yup free breakfast which sorta suck but was overcome by joy as soon i see my long lost friends and these cute tiny freshies. These freshies look, well ya fresh and blur. Like me. still. grr.
So it was a nice day in school after all, the adding and dropping the BIG HUGS AND HELLO'S yup school is back with sweet revenge. Sadly said, i've received my project brief for my Project 3 darn. The word stress is about to take over our lives. Well b4 i jump into these pool headache's and sleepless nights again, i shall proceed on to Hong Kong which i will be leaving this island in another 12 hours.
Excited I am, sorta. For the moment i forgot i was going on a holiday. Grr.. until my bro called me up and told me to pack my bags. Sheesh.
Above the picture of me and yes the Best Spirited Trophy :)
I am tired, still am. I have no idea why. I am broke but not entirely yet i hope. The bones are still much cleaner than my bank for now. I missed Mel. Seeing her today, woo happy happy. Yup, i even forgot how she sounds like. ha. The genesis meeting which i think turned into a concert of somesort was boring. The Orientation video was edited but than there were little final clash clips in it. They oughta add more, it's the highlight ya'll! and thks for the nice angle shot of my butt. grr.
I gotta pack my bag for Hong Kong Now. And i shall leave the land to the oriental. BYE! :)
"...a holiday we shall go..."
-ends i love freshies. loving the bro, frenz and families ends-
hohho
The Social Life.
My social life is getting bigger and yes i love it. But than again, it's not getting any simpler. Lotsa turmoils, talking behind the backs and stuffs. Well that's life, i love to enjoy and i do so to make myself happy :) I dun care.
Was chatting with Joyce and Astoria, missed them. Been chatting with Joyce lately haha, it was whacked. Told them a ghost story which freaked Astoria out and with Joyce's constant "Den.. Den... Den.." Uh huh. LOL School is beginning in fairly 5 hours time and i'll be flying off to Hong Kong in 36 hours time. Dearie sis should be in Thailand now.. Ooo sounds fun. Report not done and planning to hand in on Wednesdae, well i gotta go back to my office to get my book anyway argh. So yeahz.
I am shagged. Still shagged. The coughs are still a neverending irritating piece of shit. Meeting up bro later for sch. Been a while since i asked him this question, "Bro, sch together tml?" haha. Wilson is much better now phew. All the best dude. Well my blog is getting kinda crappy. Hmm. Gotta spruce things up.
I am fat. I am fat. But i lost 2kg but that doesn't make up the rest of my weight. Therefore i am fat. I am this grumbling tub of lard who yearns for more lard. HAHA. Anyway, i am fat :P Somebody's gonna get hurt real bad, somebody. Russel Peter's knock me out hah. Anyway i shall reblog later maybe change my layout, bro complained it's to squeezy haha. I am waiting for the Final Clash pictorials to be out. The crazy side of me. ROARING. Sleepy sleepy. I am going Hong Kong with ZERO DOLLARS. CRAP.
MOTHER OH MOTHER.
"... love life as it is..."
-ends okie than. luving the bro, frenz and families ends-
The Photoshoot Wannabes!
Photo's aboves taken during the camp refresh at Sentosa. They take photo with style i tell u. We're just a bunch of model wannabe's he.
get the lowdown of the pics at www.refresh.adree.net
Today is a long boring day. Mother is Malaysia. And she thot i have pocket money but i used up to pay off for HK hotel. Bahz so i am left with 5 bucks which i carefully spend at 7-11 buying instant noodles. I was hungry. Literally. I gave the Sentosa trip a miss due to my bankruptcy. So i slogged at home feeling, bored uneasy and really again bored. ROAR.
Talking to Wilson now. Nice chap he is glad to have met him :) Tuesday school. Mixed feelings. Wanting to go to school badly. But of course just to enjoy and meet up with my pals that is.
Haiz. I am really missing everyone badly. Brother, serene, tanyan, beatrice, melissa, weimin all. At least the HK trip will give more time to hang out with ma bro, Tanyan and CJ :) Can't wait for that.
Okie right now, i just decided to kill myself eating chocolates. Still coughing badly mind u. Yupz. Death by chocolate literally, DAMN IT.
Wilson dude, cheer up man. Always look up on the brighter side of life and foresee the pot of of gold at the end of the rain bow :)
Alrighty than off now.
"....yeah, mind u the world is crumbling for all of us but nothing will hinder the happiness in me...."
-ends missing all. luving my bro, frenz and families ends-
Grrrr
SO DESIGN CLINCHED THE BEST SPIRITED AWARD. ROCK ON!
People have now known me as... the crazy one. I went all out on Friday's final clash. And proudly certified that all designer's are just pure whacked. Literal. So we are sitted right next to Business School. Compared to their amount of people... well, i dunnoe why we still beat them to our cheers. Hmm. With their constant.. "They are mad! They are mad!" -applied to us, design school. And we replied happily and yes loudly... "WE ARE MAD! WE ARE MAD!" Until business quieten down. With also Business weird clapping cheers, we jolly well join in and made it ours. And again we succeeded. Boy the satisfaction. We went crazy. We rebel. We bend all the rules. We stripped to our funky tees and waved the ugly green tees in the air. Well, design school at it's best. We literally went crazy, dancing and mocking everything others do and even groove to the beats. While the other 4 schools, sat and cheered the typical boring cheers :) Like i said it was design school at it's best.
We are one.
I want to go Sentosa later with ma bro + gf, serene, CJ, Ty, Faith Alex and the rest... but i am clean to the bone. I am saving up for my brother's birthday and Hong Kong this wednesdae, When i say i am clean to the bone, i only have 5 bucks worse part no EZ LINK MONEY. Damn. I really want to go, i miss them oh so dear.... I'll see if there's a miracle.
TIRED. I shall knock out.
-ends char kway teow. luving the bro frenz and families ends-
bro's gf, bro and me!
me on the podium
Again us!
Those are the pictures above taken when i was in ChinaBlack yesterday by some photographer. Apparently, it was uploaded in www.nightlife.sg yupz :) Pretty cool huh, well actually it was one of the nicest clubbing photo i have ever haha. Considering the amount of perspiration on my tee hahaha... i dance alot. hah. It was fun.
Was in school for orientation today and had fun yup cheering and screaming. Bro and ser joined me. Yeah was preparing and stuffs for party night(which i have no idea why am i doing it again) and someone tapped on my shoulder. Swear to god i thought it was some freshman, was about to ya wassup, can i help'tcha... which took me a long 10 secs to realize that it was my brother's gf hahaha. Okay! Go figure, i was engrossed in my "job" lar... Sorri dearie heh..
The skits were boring, some were except for that group who dance, way rocks. LoL. Everything was just erm, OK... well nothing could beat Freshie Nite during inPULSE, everything was just right love it. The party was a one not to forget...
Bro+gf+serene left earlier... accompany them to the bus stop.. miss them alot lar.. even though i was busy, just sneak out a few precious moments with my treasured people of my heart :)
Final Clash. Soon in 10hours time.. Please god let design clinch the trophy like other years :)
Kinda poofed out, shall retire haa.
"...wahaha. okie nothing beats life..."
-ends okay, orait, okay. luving my bro, frenz and families ends-
hoho darkside hoho
Really, tired.
I don't have the slightest idea what's happening with me right now. The energy level is going way down. I was in school and we had our mass dance. I was literally dehydrated by the scorching sun. Which really let myself swallowing down a few gallons of water immediately. The freshies this year were all good with high energy spirits :) Love'em.
Sentosa was fun too with the screamings and stuffs with even SP students there. rock on.SO yah u can tell what happened next. Me and Rachel were having a rolling good time laughing and all. Headed off to Black around 11plus. Yup all were there. Bro's gf is nice, i like her :) Very sweet looking as well. haha. Yup but seriously i am super lethargic with a killer cough. Missed everyone there. Bonded with ma bro awhile cos been a while since we did that yupz. Missed faith, miss ser whoah i miss everyone. Even though he tried to like asking me to hold on for awhile, i just couldn't. The coughs and legs were killer. I had fun tho' :) Wa miss my brother big time sia. He gave me a hug and i left.
There was this photographer who took my pic dancing at the podium, so embarrassing and the photographer actually the showed me the pic he took, my god so unglam. LoL. He was in this nightlife thingie... "Get Spotted" SO i was spotted by them haha. They gave me their namecards and stuffs. Yup than suddenly they decided to have a group photo with the rest yup we all squeezzed on the pack dancefloor and took a group pic. Pretty nice i tell u haha. So it was cool, all of us were spotted hahaha. So i dunnoe where are we appearing lar. Haha. So today was good. but i am really lethargic now. and coughing really bad. Wished i didn't left, but i couldn't take it. haiz. Nvm meeting ma bro tml :) Yippee! SO going off now to rest.
"...blah blah..."
-ends hey ho loving my brother, frenz and families ends-
This Is Getting Better.
I would rake up my kidney and put in on a silver platter. Damn it. Stop giving me problems before i eat you up. ROAR.
Orientation Refresh. Well, mighty swell to a certain extend. Flaws visible, but enjoyment well again thrilling. Me and Faridah makes quite a remarkable team of being whacked. And arousing up the crowd.
Everything seems fine. Oops, correction. Not everything seems fine. Bahz. Who cares. Had a nice chat with ma bro just now. Bitching and stuffs. He told me the story of his life, and i told him the story of my life. Well nonetheless, interesting.
So his parents met up with his girlfriend already and had dinner. Mighty fine i tell you! All went smoothly haa and her parents met him as well. So this happen in a mere two weeks. The ball have started rolling mighty fast and well haha. You go bro. Well, let me guess, since everything's moving fast hmm so marriage is up next. I'll gain a sister in law haa. He'll slaughter me for sure for saying that. But again, if he kill me... there go one of his best man. Than again if he does.. i'll witness the wedding in eternal bliss up there, provided i go heaven. Considering the sins i've accumulated, well, i ought to be good now. hurhur. Anyway yeah he told an interesting story of meeting his "in-laws" and how she met her "in-laws" heh. Well kudos to her for being a daring soul. My brother got him a swell girl :) He's happy! waaha good good.
Going clubbing tml with serene, tanyan, alex, bro and his gf, faith, and dunnoe whu else. Serene's doing the inviting. LoL. Hope it'll be fun. So nice to have bro's gf hanging out with us :) I can't believe i'm going Hong Kong next week. Yes Hong Kong. Pretty fast. And TY tricked me. That bitch. Saying my bro gf going. Than if i go wa, damn extra lor. She and CJ, Bro and his GF and Me and ? BAHZ! I stormed off deciding not to go HK. Tat Biatch. So yes i am going Hong Kong in the end with Tan Yan, Cj and Ma Bro. Cool huh. roar.
My coughs are never ending. bleahz. Me and Faith Right now are currently.. erm, Miss Universe surfing. Checking out the babes. Haha. Some are impressive. Some are just erm. Yah u noe what i mean. haha. Okie i gotta go now. Tired. LoL.
-ends hohoho. luving my bro, frenz and families. ends-
I'd Rather Have My Kidney Dug Out Again. :(
The Time I Manage to Crap.
I was blogsurfing(not from my links) and i saw the dislikes, hates or whatever you can call it, of a few. And i saw a consistent flow. All of em' hates Britney. Aww. Cm'on. So she does sing crappy songs with meaningless lyrics and twisting the pop culture with her tough influences of being a sex symbol. Well, she is a mother to be and and yes she got married first before Christina Aguilera, it's weird that people hate her. Enlighten me all, what's the distinctive point of her that hatred is being given to her to the core. She is like any other pop stars, sorta. So she rose in 1999 where the pop culture well is pop. Dun tell me, the Hit Me Baby One More Time period, is one that people hates? So we do like her, BEFORE that is but not anymore, the fact is that sometimes when you proudly claim you're a die hard 100% anti britney fan, the tiny spark deep down inside that sparks of the interest in her still lingers. Though at times you contradict yourself by saying that you hate her.
Well. I guess she's born to make certain people happy :)
Hmm. I have a burning back. Not literally. The ointment that my mum applies sorta backfire? or did it not. The burning sensation lingers. And it seemed i just gotten myself a sun burn. Hmph. So i stand in the shower with water running down my back. oooh. Tantalising. But, i kept adjusting the heater. I dunnoe whether i should make it the hottest or not hot at all. Since my back is burning up, heat + heat = ? heat + cold =? so i stood there confused. But decided to choose the hottest. Ahh.. Syiok.
Again the saga continues. The help-me-i-want-to-meet-my-friends saga. I miss them lots.
Soon a week's time. I got delicacies from Sweden a whole heap. So the parental is giving out some. She gave me a heap to bring to school, a heap to pass to my brother, a heap to her office and yahz. More or less alot. The mother carefully select what to give. The picky traits of her. And distinctively warned me to give to the people she mentioned than to smuggle it all for myself. Bleahz. Like okay mum. I have blogged.
"Wei Min You've Turned 20! You lived for 2 decades! 8 more decades to go and you'll live a century. Come on Wei Min You can do it for sure! - best wishes ma :) hugs"
".... a friend told me, the best mirror is your best friend. and is true...."
-ends burn. luving the bro, frenz and families ends-
yuppp the blog entry is below lolz
The Un-titled Entry.
Firstly, i have recovered. More or less recovered except for the aching back. Currently it's sizzling due to some ointment that my mum applied, she claimed "it's releasing the heat and tension..." Well ought to listen to wise old mothers.
Why am i still up at 4-am? Hmm.. Nothing much. I should rest, but after my major puking session around 12am just now, whoah i feel refreshed, better than ever (except for that aching back, again). I changed my blog layout because i really think black is getting into me i'd rather have something much more to the fresher side. White is simply, yes cliche, clean. (With other terms, verbs, nouns, and abbreviations that goes with white)
Something hit me. When i was in agonising pain 2 days ago that is, i had alot of flashbacks. Literally. Flashbacks of me entering poly, since the whole orientation saga is going on now, everything seems such a dejavu.
Flashback 1 -Orientation (Rave) 2003 - It was one of my significant moments of my life. Entering poly really marked my turning point. Hmm, gaining full independence and stuffs, well yeah bull shit, but to think of it, it's kinda true.
Flashback 2 - O levels - Yeapz, the tretcherous big O's. Well over and done with it, well it's one of the moments that i don't wish to repeat. Heh.. Even tho i had pretty well deserved aggregates :)
Flashback 3 - DSC - It was the moments i stepped into this club, where everything in my life changed. For better or for worse. Truthfully, i gained the experience that i need to gain and all of the extra's are bonuses.
Flashback 4 - Being in IAD - Sometimes it seems i've landed myself in a wrong course but at times is just right for me. But i have no regrets. The knowledge i earned is useful but the most important thing, is the IAD family. They are the ones that stays in my heart.
Flashback 5 - Gaining a Best Friend - Ain't it just swell? Plain brothers. A bond that is the envy of others. God bless us. :)
Flashback 6 - Vietnam - Now this one experience that i won't forget. Be it whether i did the least or the most, the trip was worthwhile. Eventhough departing on the 1st day of Hari Raya leaving my loved ones behind for 3 whole weeks, i am not at lost. The loved ones of my friends and brother were there :) Vietnam, thy shall not part.
Flashback 7 - 2003 until 2005 - I have developed to what i am now. Where life is full of regrets, fortunates and wealth nevertheless the whole journey was, good.
Apparently as i lay stiff on bed, i think of these stuffs, i gaze upon my room and see all the pictorials hanging on my walls. Those were the good times :) And the future be it good or bad i'll definitely live and learn.
Ciaoz all!
"..... i never regret nor do i fret....."
-ends i am blessed with my life. Luving the brother, frenz and families ends-
wahahaa
Alive and Kicking.
I knew something was wrong when i last wrote my entry. The whole body was weak. Clueless with what that happened, the whole body stiffens and i can't breathe out of a sudden. Trying hard gasping for air, drag my stiff body and bang onto my mom's room. Yup, as panic stricken as she is rushed to the hospital at 5am in the morning. Crap, even though i dunnoe how dying feels like but what i went through, more or less it's like it.
Whoah, i didn't what the doctor, he gave me pills and injections. Argh. Painful. Agonising pain i was in. I was discharged at 1 pm, knowing that my body is functioning back. But, i was wheel chair bound. My legs were as wobbly as jelly. Damn it. What happen? I took the wrong medicine. Which affects my body system, due to my kidney. Yes. I was affected badly due an intake of one wrong pill, foolish me.
I was so weak, that being on a wheel chair suck. But couldn't care less, i still try to walk. And yupz, and now still alive and kicking. But a prolonged cold and cough seemed to take over me. Darn. The back and neck still aches. Sheesh, but i feel so much better now.
Point taken: Always see what medicine i'm taking. LoL.
The kind brother offered to buy porridge for me yest but i declined nicely. Whoah, since everybody wanna know what happened due to my Msn Nicks, well here u go read my blog la hahaha..
I'll continue later ya'll..
"...thank god..."
-ends luving the brother, frenz and families ends-
the art of defence is through brotherhood.
I Am Not In A Good State.
I repeat, i am not in a good state. I am tired, Everything doesn't seem to go the way it should be. I wish there were more time or to the extreme, let the hands of clock turn it's time back. The coughs are back, the bones are aching, the mind's whirling and everything else is somewhat not good.
Do not ask me why. I do not know why but yes. The health, the work, simply everything is going WRONG. Secluding myself from everyone, and hanging out with people that i don't use to hang out with, Doing stuffs that i know alot disagree. There must be perfect reason for my actions. But it seemed to be in a daze.
I have tried, really tried my best. But somethings are just meant to be aye. Well apparently, alot happened. In mere days. The days are miserable. I am counting down till the day i meet my friends. I miss everyone badly. I miss Serene's laughing, TY's bitching, Mel's voice, Weimin's Motherly affections, Herwin's well Herwin, Nadi's crap, Beat's vulgarity, not forgetting my brother, missed Jason's, well miss Jason.
Damn it. This is not good. Not good at all. Right now, seriously the wings of time is really not on my side and everything is happening within the blink of an eye. The adrenaline of life is pumping up for me a little bit too early. I foresee the hell to be gone through in the future is approaching near. ARGH. Secluding myself, to suppress this inner thoughts, the war of the intellectual being is far to suppressed.
Armageddon. Push it away someone. Push it far far away.
"... i'd rather not mention it..."
-ends dying. luving the brother, frenz and families badly ends-
I am online now.
I am chatting with Dana.
I can't sleep.
She can't sleep.
We both can't sleep.
We had a shower.
Not together.
And now we can't sleep.
Dana is whacked.
Whackier than me.
So yah i'm online now.
Chatting with Dana.
".... burped...."
-ends sleepy not. luving my bro, frrenz and families ends-
Okay La. I'm Tired La. bleahz.
Woke up really early today to some stuffs boy was i tired after that, kinda lethargic tho. Had a quick rest and met herwin and nadi and serene at pacific coffee... Okie la just slack away... Oh yah. Went to windows and they're filming the movie thingie shit down there. Boy! Wong Lilin is mutha fuckin hot! Allan Wu is one lucky ass! She is literally one hot momma. *drools* heh.
Today's kinda low and boring. Yeah change my hp no. guess u all know right :) Hmm.. what shall rant about today.. blog about lemmee see...
Ooo.. nothing really happen much today, same old same old. Hear people bitching, talking crap, eating endlessly, hear complain.. see myself complain, hearing people lifes crumble and considering mine ain't any better well. Yeah typical day.
Bro's reallllly busy with his work lately yup so we just ended up msging haha and guess not gonna meet up la. Well, he's super concern bout my health wooo thanks alot man bro! :)
Was in the cab earlier on the day, and was happily smsing and minding my own business. The cab driver's pretty cocky and nonetheless a busybody.
He just snapped.
Taxi Driver : "Eh boy what you doing on your phone?"
Me : Mess... (rudely interupted by the driver before i end of my, Word)
Taxi Driver : Playing Game ar~?!
Me : Sms la..
Taxi Driver : So Long ar? So many friends? What you message?
Me : (feeling abit pissed already) Why?
Taxi Driver : Just want to know lor! (and yes he screamed)
Me : It's best that you, Not know
Taxi Driver : Why cannot mehx? That that ar.. sex msg ar~!?
Me : (feeling like punching him in the face big time) What rubbish Mister~!? Eh please la, it's my phone, it's my friends, my wish la... (so what if i was being rude to an elderly)
Taxi Driver : So really sex msges!!?? share share la
Me : Ok, UNCLE. Whoever or whatever my messages are doesn't concern you at all. Like as if your life ain't enough than to go ard poking into other people's business. And, i may be young and have a high sex drive, i'm not like who is sexually deprive. Ok uncle.
Taxi Driver : okok... sry la..
Taxi drivers nowadays sheesh. Well, so i'm lil direct and a tad rude. A tad~?! haha Super rude la but than who ignite it first? I mean i dun mind the normal casual chats about the weather, the economy but hello trying to pry into my business, whatcha getting into~? God damn it.
Okay la, i oughta sleep now.. See ya'll!!
".....the life we are in now, is much to precious to end just like that. Be happy, contented and never end it due to misery and regret....."
-ends hey ho. Loving the bro! frenz and families ends-
i have decided to take a break from R&B songs on my blog and put a nice slow song haaaa... eat your heart out!! wahahaha.. izked
Inevitable Feelings, Yet Again.
Once more, the inevitable "emo" feelings kicked. I dreadfully have to live with it, but inside, i really want this feeling out of my life. At times, don't you feel like your world's crumbling down. The stage where you're at the lowest. I really abhor those inevitable feelings. Which kicked in once in a while. Argh. And that moment is now. Damn it.
I guess, i need to cheer myself up :)
Did i mention, Go watch House of Wax? Killer flick, with waxing clicks. ooo. The low down, the death of Paris Hilton. Classic. What better more do u ask for from a sex kitten. To die in red lingerie with her ankle sliced into two and a rusted pole gushed through her forehead and out the back with a position on a much anticipating blowjob, but no rod entered that trap of hers except for that crusty pole through her head. Now, that left her jaw open for once with nothing in it ooo. classic. The ratings 4 out 5, yes worth the money for some gore :)
Okay, the weather dropped. And i am thankful to God. To mother nature. I dun sweat out drop perspiration for at least 3 days. Boy am i delighted. The weather's cool, it makes the bed comfy and just everything in place :) I oughta in bed right now, yes the temptations. I need to sleep and wake up really early.
A friend confessed me her problems. I pity her and i love her as a friend alot. She doesn't believe in any silver lining. But i told, to always look up for the future. Anything bad that happen now, happens for a reason. It could even be a blessing is disguise. The hurts, torments is all the work of god and i know, you'll be blessed soon. Don worry, the bad will not stay in you forever. You've got a friend to look up to here :) Just make sure everything will run smoothly and dun fret on the regrets. Look up to a new day as a new beginning :)
Another friend came up to me yesterday telling her miscommunications with a very extremely good friend of mine. Bonding on each individual to the other individual is different. Each person has a different bond. We're special in a different way to everyone else. Just remember everyone has a tiny part of you in their hearts. Always :)
With all these, hmm i should a psychiatrist. BLEAHZ! haaa.. Ok heading of the bed!
"... cheer up my fellow friends ..."
-ends. hehe. luving the bro, frenz and families ends-
missing all theseeee....
LIKE HELLO BLOGGIE.
Ya i know i've been neglecting the bloggie for sometime. Busy Busy sorta haa... On friday headed off to Phuture with Nadi, Herwin, Weimin and Isthiqlal. It was okie lar, just that i was pretty poofed out. The songs at Phuture were damn good. The grooves and the shaking your booties were extreme. Anyway, kinda shagged past few days.
Caught up with my brother yesterday and watched "The House of Wax" Haa if you guys havent caught it yet, you better watch it!
Let me give u the low down why u must watch it.
paris-blowjob-lingerie-blood-sex-waxing-fun
GO WATCH IT!!!.. Me and bro had a ball of a time yest haha. Saw his friend Ron and chatted awhile :) Yupp.. headed off home than. Still with the mind blowing gruesome killings of house wax which really is gruesomes considering our ewwws~ and oooo and noooo... comments during the movie. It sure leaves a mark in my head haha.
Wanna say congratulations to my brother :) hee..
Today is momma's day! yes... i did nothing. Lol. Becauseeee.. i bought her a gift. :) Hehehe. Nokie 3230. She's happy. and definitely gleeful. Hmm.. gotta rant more about Phuture. Nadi's attempt of not getting drunk apparently got into her. With her constant slamming or lemme phrase it.. sliding onto the dance floor and her weird ramblings of commenting that i am a mattress. And her instant crave of tom yam. Hmm. That made us laugh like idiots.
I can't help it! i can't help it! i need retail theraphy NOW! haa..
Well, i'm a constant at someone's blog and considering what i saw is more off a taste of what i went through before. Hmm. well one advice, ignorance is bliss :)
The medical stats of myself is getting a tad haywire but with a solution definitely. But i'm tired of going through again and again. One kind soul, my brother that is gave me advice. Which gave me the courage to carry on :) Good for me, quedos to happiness. So anyway, i'll continue blogging later heh..
"... man, i've had enough.."
- ends i miss the amt of days left luving the brother, frenz and families ends-
helllo is back. ok i changed my blogskin and i am outz. hahaha..
Relaxed, Kinda.
Well, decided to take MC from work today. That's it. Work is really getting into me. When there's no work, its a whole new ball game in the office. And when there's work again another story. I'm tired of waking at 8 everyday to head off to office not knowing what lies there for me. That is why i prefer to do things well, not to complete the whole thing in just one day even tho' i know i can i would rather save it for the next day becos i foresee, no correction, i know they'll take time to give work to me so i'd rather keep myself busy than do nothing.
I took MC. yes. i slept in for awhile. When i woke up headed off to my aunt's place ar. Yeah. Than headed home around 3. Bought hair dye. Yes, it was eons ago sinced i dyed my hair. hahaha. I also dunnoe what color. Yupz, bought this portable air cooler. I might say the weather is a killer. Argh.
Ok let me repeat myself, my brother yes, that bugger Jason Tay is not attached. Goodness... is just a mere courtship. HELLO, IT TAKES TIME MAN. ok since i posted up the entry yesterday in my blog. Woottzzz... i am bombarded with alot queries by many kinds of people. LoL. Well, i knew it was coming. haa..
Initially, since me and ma bro had been having lotsa fun lately, decided to have lunch wit him today ahakz. i forgot, he's in JB now. LoL. SO yahz. Steph's sick damn it couldn't meet her for dinnerrr dammmn. Period.
I am determined to change my blogskin today, i think LoL. And i am determined to slack abit today. Haa. There is just one thing. A twinge. I kinda miss my frenz. Guess been meeting up lately was a happy occassion :) Well this sat i hope. haa. Anywayz, reblog later, Slack awhile lar..
You all weird la... I REPEAT JASON IS NOT ATTACHED. Just mere courtship. Pengz..
I Am Strong Enough.
(wanna know the secret i've been hiding read on.)
I did things that took certain things off my mind. Yes, it made me feel gladfully happy. Even tho' the day was dragged abit later due to religious ceremonies earlier in the day. I went off to work around 12+. Wrong move. There was nothing for me to do at work today. Literally nothing. Zero, Zilch. I was bored stiff. I even went out and visit the Ex-president funeral at the istana, considering the istana is right beside my office. (nadi didn't know the late Dr. Wee Kim Wee passed away. Pengz) Paid my respect to the people's president.
Met up with a friend. A nice friend. hee. Yup and went back to work. I bought mysyelf 5 magazines to keep myself occupied in the office. And yes i read thoroughly word by word. Bleahz. Still nothing to do in the office made me bored stiff. Argh. At last 630 came and zoom off without any haste. :)) I do not want to go home. I just made me feel low.
Met up with nadi and herwin and had dinner at NYDC wheelock. Yummy full! haa.. Had the meatballs that ate manhattan and lemon shiver hee. Dessert - NOT TODAY. lol. Oh yeah met mich as well to get my pay from plasterglass. 96 bucks. Bleahz okie lar. cheap labour lol.
So everyone agreed my hair is kinda long now. but wat to do. i laze to cut le! lol.
Oh yah, wanna know a secret. The one that i have been hiding? hee..
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The heart is contented. With love again. Sorta. Well, it's a play of both the mind and the heart. But, it's in the process. The story dates back from a gathering a few weeks ago and the tingling thing called well love (not yet, infatuation i might say) re-surfaced. Haa. So now, it's all about the dates, the dinners, the questions, clarifications, the unknowns and the truths, all done b4 a step into a relationship. I guess an oath should proceed on as well. In order, the worse wont be repeated again.
Like i say, not yet in a relationship, it's the wonderful world of courtship.
Just one twist.
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It's not me.
It's my best friend the one and only brother, Jason. :)
(he allowed me to mention it now in my blog, that's why the great big secret is revealed. now)
Well kudos for happiness and all the best. It's a state of pre-relationship, so it's hard to decide. Well, the feelings will take time and develop. haa. Happy for my best friend man. Even though he kept saying, if want to write on my blog tell together lar (meaning share my "courtship here as well" not), dun left him hanging alone. Bahz. GET THE HINT? haha. Well bro, it's out now :)
I met him earlier just now, cos i bought this funky tee from cineleisure. Haha. He likes it :) so we chatted by his pool and stuffs. He just came back from movies with *ahem* so yahz. We got lotsa shitz, good shitz, that is to talk about.
Meeting Stephanie tomorrow for dinner :) Wootz at last. Hmm.. can meet up at Nadi's place, Turqoise? haha.
Today was good, it made me take things off my mind. I do not want to brood on unhappiness :) Death is the circle of life. Life goes on no matter what. Positivity. Right now, i'm feeling rather feverish, god knows why la. But ya. Been sneezing and having the cold sweats. Argh. Dun make me sick. I wanna meet up with Steph tomorrow! haaa...
"... it's good, we moved on..."
-17 more days-
-ends tired. luving the bro, frenz and families ends-
A Silent Prayer.
Work was as usual this morning. The laziness and stubborness of getting out of bed. Well, it's a typical work day today after such a nice weekend. Until it came to a halt right at ard 1+pm.
A tragic halt that is. Guessed the handphone really is essential no matter what. I was out for site visit around 10+ at this abandoned warehouse in Jalan Kilang. God knows why, my phone had zilch reception. Well i brought out only my flip fone and left the other one in my bag. Damn. The parental tried hard calling me and smsing me. She even called the office but all was out for lunch. She called and messaged my bro prepetually there was no answer for the 1st time but at the 2nd time there isn't any ringing tone whether he knows how to get me. All these done, just to get me. Since the phone had no reception and my hp left only with 2 bars due excessive radio listening, i switched off. Smart move.
I switched it on again back in the office herwin called to meet up with me but i just had lunch la... I received gazellions messages from my mum.
"Isk, balik sekarang! Family emergency! (means - isk go home now there's a family emergency!)"
"Isk call mummy quick!"
SO hurriedly i called her. She blabbered non-stop. Until the tragic news came around. My mum's sister passed away. My jaw dropped. My mum's elder sister was like my 2nd mum. She's my mentor. She passed away to that dreadful disease, diabetes. I was in deep shocked. Extremely. No tears tho'. Panicstricken which made me felt numb. I took off immediately. I was yes, kancheong, hailed a cab and off to tampines. I kept messaging my bro endlessly dude dude my like aunt passed away! Well, yeah no reply. Disappointed by his actions i can't blame him, he is busy with work. Well, maybe my messages didnt get to him at all. Since my mum couldn't even contact him.
The whole day today was all a rush. I just got home an hour ago to wash up but off again later on to my yah, aunt's place. As sad as i am, life still goes on. I told my bro. Only my bro. But i guess, he didn't get the messaged. Well, i guess it's just hard to be contacted at times, i myself seemed hard to be contacted too earlier today. So contained the sorrowness in myself. Which i know i'll get over it soon.
I'm sorry man bro pissed ya when ya busy.
A death in a family is something tragic. But it's god's will a definite answer to a peacful life ahead. Death. Returned to where we belong.
A silent prayer.
A tear glistens.
The rose withers.
-in loving memory-
"... the loved one is loved deeply..."
-ends bye. luving my bro, frenz and families ends-
Another Day Spent Well.
My feet are sore and i have a tendency to sleep any minute now. Yupz. Woke up at 2pm again interrupted by Nadi's Msg.. Bahz so woke up met Nadi and headed to town to meet with Herwin, Bro and the rest lar. Well the rest Weimin, Faith, Ty and Ser didn't turn up even tho' we were all in town. LOL. So it was Me, Nadi, Bro, Herwin, Faith and Beat. It was nice la. We chatted did a little shopping and stuff. Woot treated Nadi pastamania. And treated the rest Gelare. Well, so i'm just feeling good after yesterday's night superb sleep! Haha. Yes i had a good rest last night lol.
Me and bro headed home first by bus haha. Since 14 was there we just hopped on it la. Waaaa... we really had a like haha deep thought talking larrrr from Orchard to Tanah Merah it was a long ride but it felt fast when u're not alone :) Yeah he accompanied me to Simpang to get my mum's dinner and again we chatted endlessly lar. Is like weird, we really have loads to talk about. It was endless. It was good definitely.
So now we noe like our latest secrets and stuffs heee.. Contented stuffs! haha
Again i know a secret that alot is dying to know!! hee..
I reached home around 11. Yup pretty recent and i'm kinda shagged. It was nice to meet up with everyone. So we all MIGHT go clubbing this saturday again. :) So we'll see about it. Oh yah met Esther in town boy she's happy to see us and so did we! hehe I gotta soak my feet god knows but it hurts. Ok so the SIP is ending in 3 weeks. BOY i really hope it ends like faster. And i'm looking forward for the Malaysia Trip at the end of it haa! Tick Tock Tick Tock!
Me and bro, really missed our past actually. Yupz. It was history all of us had. Something we learnt. And now try not to repeat the mistakes. I'm happy with whatever that turned out now. From actions in the past. It's good. Yup both of us agreed everything turned out well. My bro used to have 5 best friends eversince stepping into poly, there's a plus 1. Me :) Delighted definitely. And he has no regrets. I found friends that is definitely hard to come by. I cherished them with all my heart. :) Yup definitely, found a blood brother quality best friend. Ooo.. well, my main reason why friends play an important part of my life, no one can understand the heart of an only child better than these quality people. :) Teehee..
Okie, it's a pretty heart warming entry today. I'll let it be for now and let the tired heads rest or so.
"... all it need is take a step in life, and the future is changed. for the better or worse it depends on that step..."
-19 more days-
-ends delighted. luving the brother, friends and families ends-
The Clock Striked 5.
It's really been a while since i was up at this time of the day. I kinda missed it tho'. Heh. So i just added more pics and changed some pics in my [The Links & Pix] section :) enjoy ya'll! Today went on as mentioned yesterdae. Slept, woke up, nap, tv etc. hehe. It was a slacked day. I did house chores as well. Whoah boy. Lol. Ironing, mopping the floor and stuff. Wahaha. Kinda weird huh. Anyway i'm just trying to help the parental out.
I think the god's heard my call.
IT RAINED. YES IT DID. The weather well toned down abit. Boy am i delighted. H20 down yesss! Hahaha. Going out in the day later on just to hang out slack with the rest or maybe catch a movie or so. Oh my god. I can't believe that the weekends past so fast. I ain't having enuff of it yet!! argh.
Lemme see what have i missed so far during my SIP period...
- my friends duhz
- well school..
- the staying up late to do assigments
- oh ya the assignments
- chicken cutlet with cheese in the school canteen
- teh peng ah...
- well i miss design school hee..
- the cad lab
- the studios sorta
Hmm i need a school rehab. haa.
Obviously, i need to go on a shopping spree. can't wait for that. wahahaha. The dysfunctional wardrobe of mine are really dysfunctioned. I am so sicked of the clothes that i wear, kinda. It's the same thing over and over again. Well lemme see, there is enough room to stuff in more apparel, DEFINITELY. Haa more tees, jeans, caps and accessories. Hear me roar!
I've not been fashionizing for so long. And it's about time. Thank god for the greens! If not, no money yup no talk.
I watched the Mrs World pageant on tv earlier on. So Singapore got in the top 12. AND it's wendy jacobs. Aiya she is not Singaporean oso lar. Pengz just PR. So. bleahz. the show is such a turn off. Bad commentating and stuff. Is like the part where the ladies parade off in their national costumes, the commentator was like.. "This is Australia.." "This is India.."
WHAT IS WITH THE "THIS IS"!! it's plain irritating and like hello, can't you just say, "Mrs INDIA!" (with enthusiasm la, u noe somewhat like u're on wheel of fortune calling on a vowel or so, u noe wat i mean) Thank god i'll still support anything under the Trumps Organization. :) Miss Universe and Usa has the best productions ever :) haaa..
Well, i might hit the pillows for now. :)
"... i'm glad that the best friend is contented. No one knows yourself more than your best friend..."
-21 more days-
-ends luving the bro, friendz and families ends-
It's A Great Day! (despite the weather)
So i took a nap. And than met up with my best friend! JASON wahaha.. been a while la. Yupz, asked me out for prata i didn't eat tho cos i sorta eat b4 i went out lar. So we met up and ya waaaaaaaa we chatted so long. it was nice la :)
I KNOW A SECRET AND NOT GONNA TELL WAHAHA (i know some readers here are super tempting on to know wat's the secret heh)
So i've been going out with someone lately. Casually la for fun. Nothing much just meet up after work kinda thing hee... Oh yah so me and bro just like hung out and walked to his grand's place and stuff yup. Meeting up again this Monday with the rest :) hee. It should be fun. I'm missing them already.
So brudder, upon your request i've put up Hollaback Girl for ya on my blog ya!
It was fruitful day. hee hee. Oh boy. I gonna have a nice sleep today. I think. I ate muscle relaxant pills to enjoy my sleep thoroughly. Wake up may around 1++? to watch tv.. napping. online. gaming. well.. Sunday is a slack day. :) Oh boy. the weather is getting into me. I could stand in the shower, without switching on the heater, for hours and enjoy the cold moisture on my body. Woo.. al paradiso.
Shit la, i wore my reef slippers and i got blisters. On my toes and well side of my feet. This bubbly water sockets coming out from my skin are far to painful and yet tempting to be burst but well... i'll be patient and let it dehydrate first. I guess the weather really changed my vocab. Dehydrate, H20, water sockets... whoah... Seriously gimme some cooolll... ness. Please. Pretty please.
Oh ya my blog had turn 1 today!
Happy birthday bloggiee!!!! Let's have more bitching together in the future!
Anyway i gotta go now. Lol. I would want to. Answer the call of my pillow pls. hehe. See ya'll.
"... i am so glad that a spark was created. quedos to happiness..."
-22 more days-
-ends draining moisture loving the bro, frenz and families ends-
