Here We Go
Hey all,
I'm turning 20! I'm turning 20! bleahz. Anyway..
This is Iskandar here, i'm having my 20th Birthday Barbeque on the
29th September 2005,
i hope you guys can make it yeah. It will be at -
Address: Aloha Changi, 40 Biggin Hill,
Address: Aloha Changi, 40 Biggin Hill,
Biggin Hill Bungalow A
Time: 7pm until late
How to get there: Take bus 29 from Tampines Interchange and alight at the 13th stop including the interchange. After alighting, cross the road and on to your left you'll see a road leading up called Sealand Road, go all the way up the road and at Biggin Hill Road turn left, you'll see some stupid air traffic shit and VOILA on the left is my chalet!!
The map is below!
Do R.S.V.P on my mobile me if you guys are coming yeah =)
Time: 7pm until late
How to get there: Take bus 29 from Tampines Interchange and alight at the 13th stop including the interchange. After alighting, cross the road and on to your left you'll see a road leading up called Sealand Road, go all the way up the road and at Biggin Hill Road turn left, you'll see some stupid air traffic shit and VOILA on the left is my chalet!!
The map is below!
Do R.S.V.P on my mobile me if you guys are coming yeah =)
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Yes, to those who received my smses, e-mails or msn's here you go again.
Apologies goes out to anyone that slips off my invitation list.
Thanks =)
Spotted
Looky look who i spotted in the latest magazine called SNAG (sensual new age guy) which is a darn crappy name for a magazine. Sensual and new age don't really go together aye. Anyway, the magazine focuses more the camera whoring babes to be exact with rather superficial and a rather profound but yet bimbotic version of juice. Why did i buy it?
I was told, people whom i know was in the magazine. And voila! 2 design students + plus a girlfriend of a design student(she's from media comm) OK la, the pictures made them looked good, but i think Yessica do look hot aye! wahaha
I shall side track abit with my conversation with serene as i type.
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_izk-ed® >> bu shi bi ren he dong xi dou zhen gui de mah says:
she needs a tan badly
flutterby. miniature. says:
i think tan also no use
flutterby. miniature. says:
she needs to die badly
_izk-ed® >> bu shi bi ren he dong xi dou zhen gui de mah says:
WAHAHAHAHA
flutterby. miniature. says:
return to her own worls
flutterby. miniature. says:
*world
_izk-ed® >> bu shi bi ren he dong xi dou zhen gui de mah says:
*salutes *
flutterby. miniature. says:
HAHAHAHAHA
flutterby. miniature. says:
oops
flutterby. miniature. says:
i'm so mean
_izk-ed® >> bu shi bi ren he dong xi dou zhen gui de mah says:
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There are times, endless crapping and bitching do occur at 520 in the morning.
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Wondering why i have a chinese nick on msn? I wonder too. Hmm.
"...show me what you've got..."
-ends pain wah! I love & miss my brother, friends & families ends-
Look what made it's new debut in the residential!
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Thank you cousins for the Gucci Wallet, Prada Shoes and Hugo Boss Perfume! Thank YOU!!!!
It was an early birthday gesture because my birthday falls on the 30th but they are to busy with work to celebrate with me so they decided to throw in these lovely gifts to me today!! Thank you thank you! Not forgetting, they brought me to Swensen's for a late dinner in town.
Geez, i don't deserve good cousins *weeps*
So i didn't have an early night afterall!! Hey eat your hearts out with my gifts! (well no harm showing off once in a blue moon aye) Afterall they are my birthday gifts!!! =) Oh yah, the pictorials above are taken from a webbie, eh my digi cam spoil eons ago la hor. So yes, another 4 more days and i would love to own a new digi cam.
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*hint hint clue clue*
I am a happy boy! Ok i shall sleep now, with all these happy thoughts in my mind and the companion of my new gifts. Ahh.. they're so beautiful i don't even wanna use'em heh. Oh well.
I will have very nice sleep tonight!
"...blessed...
-ends thank you! I love & miss my brother, friends & families ends-
Body Clock
I woke up darn early for a Sunday, well believe it or not, i woke up at 9am sharp. Eek. Tell me about it. I snooze yesterday around 3am which is shockingly early! Yes, my body clock had made a slight detour. The past few days, i've been waking up realising it is the morning sun. Nope, the evening or afternoon sun did not greet me, it's bright scorchy 9-10am sun.
I have no clue whether it is a good thing or not but i guess it should be aye? Apparently, right now, my back aches and i have a stiff night, now i thought i could blame it on the long sleeping hours but then again, i slept as per normal. Some sort of turmoil is happening in me and i have no clue what it is.
I've decided to blog early today, just in case i might doze off anytime soon heh. Sunday, let me see, my eyes were wide awake watching endless cartoons and televisions and even VCDS. Okie a sunday well spent, sorta. I need myself some sun you see. When i met bro last friday at his place, i realised the warm sun shining down on me is all that i needed. The warmth, the re-freshing feel, i feel as though my body had replenish all it's nutrients that were lost during school term and now geared up and ready to go. Hm.. in that case, i need me some sun damn it.
>.<
Actually, my life during the holidays is not that bad. Everyday is something new. I don't repeat the activities i do daily but at times i would but all i can say, every single day i was greeted with a whole new plan lined out for me. Which is definitely a good thing! If i were, to do the same thing or visit somewhere often, i swear the game is that, i have no life, or practically my circulates to my regulars. Be out of the box and entice yourself people! Feel the world, greet the world! Right, apparently the mindset when off somehow. -__-"
I tried to alter my pants but my blardie sewing machine broke down on me. I have no clue how to fix it and now, i sew it MANUALLY. Which took me ages! I could feel my body hair grow every hour i poke a needle through my pants. Nonetheless, by now i guess i look like a furball. BAHZ!
Pardon the english, grammatical and vocabulary errors for today's entry, because i couldn't be bothered to a round up check up. So anyway. BAHZ.
"....mr sandman, give me a dream...."
-ends oeo. I love & miss my brother, friends & families ends-
Hello World
Elated, i am. Delightful, i am too. Why?
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I passed all my friggin' subjects! Kiss my arse supplementaries! heh
Alright then. I've been rather busy lately with work, diploma show and my thingie. Yes i've been running amuck day in and day out and now, i suffering from this major sore throat. Waking up every morning feels dreadful with a sore voice. It seems like something is stuffing it's arse down my throat but who cares? If i just look at the positive side (which i always do) everything will just disappear even without noticing =)
Now is the 24th September. As you guys can see, i'll be turning 20 in 6 days to be exact. 20 is a big number. The number 1 that is normally accompanied by another number will bid farewell soon. 20 years; i've been living for 2 decades. When i phrase it that way, it seemed that i've aged tremendously. Thinking on how, 20 years is a life expectancy of a cat, more or less. If i was a cat, 20 years are the golden age. Where i'll pass on anytime soon. Then again, it sounds old. I could almost be historical. They should just frame me up or something and allocate me a nice cosy space in a museum. Shit, i'm ancient, preserved; i'll be an artefact!
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Oh well, 20 years ain't that long aye? OMG what if i turn 30~?!
Ok for now, i'd rather sleep. And yes for the past 2 days i slept rather early and i shall keep the habit.
I swear if i'll blog again in the next 2 hours, i swear i'll just eat my pillows up.
"...i'm the life of the party, thanks..."
-ends it's getting started. I love & miss my brother, friends & families ends-
Congratulations izkandar, you are...
'Xia Xue' Wendy Cheng of xiaxue.blogspot.com
You are a goddess/god. You've got the looks, the brains and the body. You have such an irreverent sense of humour, people listen to you religiously and worship the ground you walk on. On the other hand you can also be straightforward, blunt and very very controversial. That has the potential to offend many people, but of course you don't care, you just shoot. In the end, people either love you or hate you. Nothing in between.
Which Singaporean Blogger Are You?
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Geez. As much as i read and actually like her blog, i don't wanna be totally like her. Then again, photoshop is my thang! All hail, me?
Angelfire's Down
Alrighty, Angelfire's is clearly down again or again "i've violated the site regulations", precisely the huge question mark is planted on my face immediately. All i did was upload a pathetic song so that i could at least add some audio on to my little webbie here. And my account got temporarily suspended.
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R.S.V.P
Ok someone tell me what it means?
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Ok I was pretty amazed by the amount of people who actually do not really know the clear definition of it. All i did was sending out invites, and i get a "huh" in return. WAHAHA. It's weird, i asked one of my friends if he knew what it means or at least stands for.
His ans: Reply, Sure Very imPortant.
*faints*
Hey at least someway or somehow he got the meaning, sorta right.
The definition -The abbreviation RSVP in one of the bottom corners of invitations to request that addressees reply to indicate whether they plan to attend. This stands for the French phrase 'Répondez s'il vous plaît'. Many invitations will also have tear-off or fax-back reply forms where the guests need only fill out their name and tick one of a choice of boxes, such as:
- [Name] and partner would be pleased to attend the dinner on the evening of 10 July 2000.
- Yes, I will be attending the dinner on the evening of 10 July 2000.
- Unfortunately we will be unable to attend the dinner on the evening of 10 July 2000.or similar.
So you get what it means, good, and again i give mighty wonderful trivias in my blog. Lol.
I was talking to my friend today on how she actually pounces and flirt around with any guy she's interested in. It was funny to come to think of it, because it seemed to me that she jumps onto anything male that moves, so to anything male that doesn't moves?Eek. She giggled. She thinks that she's weird and mysterious, that guys would actually wanna know more. Which made me barfed out laughing. If she's mysterious, i'm what? Quirky, she exclaimed.
Quirky and mysterious are two different things. Hmm, which made me think, if i'm quirky shouldn't i be all perky and stuffs? Eh wait... THAT IS ME. -.- So she got it right. Plus, the term eccentric followed by. I officially claimed that as profound as it sounds but yes, i am a screw up. Hm. Now, that is eccentric. Oh well, at least i'm something aye?
The amount of people asking me to go Momo tomorrow gave me a little heart attack. I know, i know i'm the heart of all clubs (incoming slaps; self appraisal doesn't get me anywhere wahahaha) doesn't mean i have to club at least 3 times a week aye?
There are reasons why i try not to club often...
(1) The songs seemed similar everywhere, when R&B is being played, tell me when Crazy in Love and Baby Boy is not being played? Updates DJ!
(2) I'm running out of clothes to wear! As bimbotic as it sounds; i am definitely getting bored of my wardrobe.
(3) For once, or hoped that there'll be a guys night or at least let me in free or something.
(4) I go home at 6 everytime i club, where the parental wakes up and leaves for work and me... well there's nothing much to say.
(5) If clubbing seemed to be a special or once in awhile thing, why does it occur daily?
Oh well i love clubbing tooo because....
(1) Heard of the phrase shopping till you drop, this where you dance till you drop.
(2) Meet new people yes, definitely
(3) Clubbing = Dancing = Gym
(4) Eye candies =))
(5) If you're someone with an X-factor or could dance, you'll love the attention
So right now, i'm tormented to go or not to go? That is the darn question.
Anyway, again diploma show recee tomorrow mornin!! Damn it. -yawns-
Today, was pretty historical when my cat attempted the impossible. That is to fly. Jumping of the wardrobe 3 times proves nothing to it but instead his life jus got shorten down by 3. It squeals, it meows it continues. I guess the adrenaline of jumping high reliefs seemed fun to it or it's just mocking me since i am terrified of heights.
Then again, i've no comment i am eccentric including my cat. Be glad that i don't eat you up. But i shall think twice.
"...so many days, so many hours and i still burn..."
-ends YEAHA. I love & miss my brother, friends & families ends-
Elated
"You see when the police gets involved, everything simply turns complicated. Yes i put the terms simple and complicated together because these are the simple things in live which people tend to take granted for and making it as complicated as ever. Nevertheless, i really thought after a couple of crime acts that he had done, he would actually turn over a new leaf but i guess not.
The story began pretty long ago, as a matter of fact that i actually forgive and forget. But i guess to him, keeping the grudge is all that he could think off. So after merging myself into TP, everything became good for me. I have no idea where had he gone too, what happen and like yes easily said, i couldn't careless.
I was a carefree person, well i still am but whatever happened yesterday triggered the hatred in me again. You see, when you're in a fight you tend to do the horrendous things but yeah, i didn't because again, i couldn't careless. When the cops arrived, i was elated. Apparently, he + them were caught in a motion where they ought to be caught. That is in a position of whacking the shit out of me.
Gang fights are bad. Very bad. So thank god for the cops, justice is prevailed."
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I'm tired, anyway, i told you i wouldn't follow the schedule i made last night. It detoured to somewhat i didn't expect actually. There are times i really couldn't be bothered to tell my daily doings and there are times i would. I'd rather spark up some theoretical solution or as intelligent as possible a theory would be. The theory for today? I have no clue. UH HUH. Precisely.
You can picture me running amuck, screaming my head off with my hands in the air a.k.a McCaulay Culkin in Home Alone. The word bored really kicked in during the holidays. There are times i realised the hands of the clock would ticker off as if the battery was dead. Then again, if the battery was dead, why would it ticker? I would sit down at times actually hear my hair grow. Tell me about it, to get a life or not? I do have a life apparently today i left it somewhere.
The nausea of having a boring day just makes u feel paranoid. Like i said, running amuck is what i would do. Provided the house is as huge as the one you would watch in Meteor Garden. I could even hold the Newpaper Bigwalk there!
This is irritating me. In my whole life, why do people always categorize as black and white as colours?
Black and white are tones. They were never colours. Which is yeah irritating but contradicting because if you were add up all the colours in the rainbow it will turn white. Therefore conclusion, 7 colours turn neutral. Well, if it take 7 colours to be neutralised, i wonder what it takes to make it black? Hmm. Interesting trivia aye? Oh well, finetuning my eyeballs they are.
Someone grab a gun and shot me. Then again i might live.
"....do eat humble pie, tonnes of it...."
-ends Elated!! I love & miss my brother, friends and families ends-
Justice Prevails
"You've been arrested, happy me! As a foe you are, you ought to be taught a lesson. I thought giving you a 2nd chance was good enough to at least show my humanism in me but i realised i've been the dumbest person on earth to actually grant such opportunity. Justice prevails and definitely served because i thought once bitten, twice a shy, i guess in this case it's not for you aye?
You've crossed my line, you deserve nothing but a hell hole. You'd think i'd whimper my life because of you? You've got me wrong. You've got everything wrong. Never judge the vulnerable because it might eat you from the inside and trust me, i've eaten more of your sins than you think!
Nonetheless, you're a piece of shit. Nothing more than those faeces you find laying around the ground. As mighty as you think you are, the world is fair, and justice is served.
Enjoy your life, or whatever that is left. For the past 11 years, you just managed to portray yourself as nothing but an empty barrel left to rust.
Then again, i wish you well, NOT."
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Sorry for those, who have no clue what i just typed out.
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Aye brother, you know what its about aye heh.
Another boring day. Haha, oh well, let me see. I should write down a list on what i should do later in the day.
10am - be at the Airport
12pm - Lunch with the old pals at Sakae
2pm - Home from lunch
3pm - Clean up the room!!!!
-in no particular order
-- the bed
--the wardrobes
--arrange the books
--mop the floor
--etc.
6pm - watch tv
7pm - dinner
8pm - Online until the next break of dawn
Hmm wanna bet, i won't be following this guideline for sure.
I've been complaining incessantly on how bad my sleeping disorders are, and today shall be another day nonetheless. I sleep when i supposedly not to sleep and wide awake when i am supposed to sleep. Tell me something's not right? Well it is. I have no clue but yes, i would love to re-shuffle my body clock a lil and run back to square one, not entirely though.
I'm one that doesn't need sleep. I'm one that doesn't need eye shuts. I have no idea why. I AM THE ONE.
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You see, all this crank came out of this little mind of mine. Where at times it could be functioning as intelligently as possible but at times, painstakingly crap and shit just develops. Oh jolly well.
"...wow, i've won!..."
-ends uh huh zz. I love & miss my brother, friends & families ends-
sore bones. sore muscles. fuck u.
Eyes Wide Open
As i lay on my bed, hugging my bolster and enjoying the cool air, listening to the birds chirp(NOT) i tried hard to fall asleep. After 20 minutes of gazing and stoning up at the ceiling of my room, i've concluded, again, i can't sleep. Nothing new to me though, just that for once, if only i wish the gods were on my side to at least give a nudge to my body clock to actually portray the difference between the sun and moon to it! I have bad sleeping habits, not really bad just irregular. And i hate myself for that -.-
I envy my brother, who to him sleep is an easy thing. Gazing up the ceiling for a mere second would make him doze of like a baby in a cot. I wish i was that baby. I've decided to use the computer because i've always had this feeling that another blog entry would send me off to the zzz's. I sure hope it helps. So here i am again, ranting about my sleepless nights. Hmph.
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I was browsing through the ikea catalogue a moment ago and came across with cute lil things + cute big things uh huh. Pardon me, i have no idea what am i blabbering about. There is no point of me rambling about such catalogues because yes, it doesn't matter right aye?
Anyway, let me switch the topic. Oh oh oh, Mid Autumn. I love mid-autumns. I love mooncakes + double yolk please. Anyone tasted the Haagen Daz moon cake ice-cream before, it sure does fly me to the moon. Such a sinful indulgence. I swear that i've accumulated the deadly sins in my life more than anyone could.
I even think i may have invented the 8th deadly sin. Which i have no clue because practically everything i do seemed sinful to me. Hmm. Oh well, i can't predict these things to happen. When they are bound to be sinful, they'll just be! Oh goody, now it's officially known, i'm the most sinful person on earth! -cries-
A world record, that's something to rejoice about. Dang, i'll try to sleep now.
"...green is the new me..."
-ends insomnia? I love & miss my brother, friends & families ends-
back with avengence, and again, i've changed the look a lil.
Silver or Gold
I've developed a fetish for gold things recently. I have no idea why but it is actually eating up my fetish for silver things that's for sure! I really think gold with white goes ultimately good, for example, Talitha's adidas jacket. It caught my eye definitely. Not forgetting, the classic gold and black. Yes, i've been wanting this black tee from Fleshimp, with gold prints on the front that is. I know it's simple and common, but i yearn for one. It's weird because i do not have anything common and simple as that like everyone does so i YEARN FOR ONE! heh. I'm loving my gold vandals that i even wipe em' clean every single time i came home from using them.
Well, i still like silver though, i don't hate but i still do. Like i really think diamonds is so much better off with silver/white gold than just Gold. On the topic of diamonds, i'm into diamentes as well! Yes those pretty blingers, nothing to big or to small. It shimmers, it glitters and most of all it BLINGS. Nope, i am not a blinger just maybe a little but i am not ashame of it though. It is who i am la, though Britney Spears and Hillary Duff are on my playlist, -_-
I think i shall not go clubbing from the 19th until the 28th onwards. But damn it party at Momo on the 22nd and Tuesday at Newsroom bar, ah dang! I might re-consider of partying on the stipulated period ahahaha. I'm a sucker for parties. Damn it, why do i become a clubbaholic. I've been counting down the years, i've clubbing since 16!! Sheesh. Turning 20 soon, so officially i've been clubbing for 4 years. Ohmigawd. 4 years of clubbing, is some experience for me. It is definitely addictive trust for those who just began clubbing, they oughta know. Amateurs still they are heh. Hendrix? hahaha - boy i'm way too old for that club! hah.
Let me see, for so long at last Zouk will be renovated. I've memorised the mambo eversince when and actually watched it change every Wednesdae. Tsk tsk. Phuture still rock my socks off, except for the crowd. Extreme crowd.
My brother just tagged, LIKE AT LAST BRO. hah.
And again i have the diploma show meeting commencing in approximately 6 hours to be exact. hmph.
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I shall go, oh yes, that word, sleep.
"....i can't wait...."
-ends i tell you. I love & miss my brother, friends & families ends-
Partaye, again.
And yes, i just returned from Chinablack, again. As sick as i am of that place, i mentioned earlier, it just feels wrong that being a regular there and wanting not to go there anymore. So yes, again i visited, Black. I was clubbing with Anny, Jill, Tanyan and her sister. Also met up with Wilson and pals there.
The club again, didn't rise to the occassion. The songs were bad. Extremely bad. It only got better when it's around 3. The party started a tad too late. I was just slacking majority of the time in the lounge. Drinking wine and stuff. I tell you, this is the first time i jumped on and off the podium regularly due to the irregular beats. The Dj lift our hopes up with a typical R&B song for awhile and changed to house next. Uh huh, tell me about it. It's irritating. I swear i could fall asleep, not that it wasn't fun just that the crowd today was bad, not only at the dancefloor but even in the VIP lounge, it was boring. Very very boring. Very very very boring. Ok i guess 3 "borings" could tell much huh. I was in the lounge slacking on the sofa, sipping my wine, when all of a sudden someone stepped on my hand when they try to go up the podium. Uh huh, major ouch. I just thank god it wasn't stillettos. Phew.
Let's move on and not talk about clubbing. I met someone whom i don't wish to meet at Orchard. Oh yes i was being nice and all, which made Anny amused after i mention to her that the guy i just met was the foe of my life.
I can't believe my friggin' brain that i actually asked, "How are you?" and "What are you doing now?" Crap. Seriously, it was crap, like Anny mentioned, i am just too nice. A litte tad too nice considering he was, well correction, he IS a mean, rude, painstakingly a mother fucker that tries so hard to be comfortable one skin. Ew.
Considering i broke his nose before, i should be asking, "Hey nice nose job!" or maybe even "How's the nose coming along?" but no i have to be nice and all.
Overall, i can't believe i met him. Argh. My appetite for a cheeseburger i had just now just de-appertize it self, nonetheless i still gobble up one.Heh.
I should be snoozing away but nope i'm awake and all watching Charmed and chatting to frequent late night/early morning msn-ers. For example Faith and Talitha. Yes these 2 peeps of mine.
Oh i miss'em so so much.
Okie right now, i feel like sleeping. For once i feel like sleeping before the break of dawn. Seizing of the opportunity shall take place.
Tralala!
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P.S. Oh yah brother, i know you've been reading my blog and complained that my tagboard doesn't work, but it does, whatever you're experiencing is NORMAL. So do tag yeah heh.
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"....i remember when you said, i abhor you 3 years back...."
-ends misses. I love my brother, friends and families ends-
Clubs + Retail Theraphy = Happy Me
Ok bye all.
Sim Card Grim Reaper.
Ok, i just realised that i lost my SIM card (not my current no.) like 5 mins ago. The scary thing is that, i have no idea when did i loose it, could be today, yesterday or a week ago. God knows, i slot it in my wallet for future use so it must have dropped out somewhere somehow. I didn't panic because loosing SIM cards to me is like "the next best thing" and as frequent as it occurs i didn't expect this to turn out.
I called up the no., IT RANG.
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IT ACTUALLY RANG.
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After like a long wait some lady pick up, i am sure she was sleeping because of the dreading voice and yes a definite chinese speaker. The conversation goes like this,
Lady: Wei~? (definitely sleeping, she sounds like a pig)
Me: Hi sorry to disturb you, but i think you're using my SIM card?
Lady: Ni shi shui (i think that's how u spell it)
Me: The owner of the card..
Lady: !#$6$#$*!~#...
-toot toot toot toot-
Me: WHAT THE FUCK. She hung up on me. WTH.
I called again. It rang like 5 times and she hung up on me again. Mother of all whores. I swear. Duh called up Starhub, and suspended my line. I swear, if i find my bill accumulate to a bomb, beware u SIM card grim reaper.
I hope u die picking up another SIM card, bang by a garbage truck.
Where is the sense of responsibility, tsk tsk. If money i understand la, picking it up looking around who drop it but no one is around of course you'll keep it duh, don't expect to return it to the cops la, hallo as good as a citizen, do return a god damn sim card to Starhub or something. Definitely her brain could be a size of a pinhead, which is eventually made up of selfishness and entirely about herself. I swear, you'll be a pig in your next life.
Period.
Anyway, i was out today since 11am, meet up with Denise, Rongsen, Edna and Mervin for our Diploma show receeing. Uh hu we all thought we could settle on the Singapore Art Museum but now, the galleries are not for rent. Sheesh, weird but hello, Design school displaying our design work in the Singapore Art Museum seem to go well right? But no, they have to decline us. Grr. So much for being the top Design school in Singapore!
Our next stop the NLB, as huge and a magnificent architecture as it is but the exhibition areas are way small, pewny to be exact. Screw the NLB. So the last 2 choices, Suntec City Convention Centre and Raffles Convention Centre. Oh well, a typical hall again, but no way we're gonna hold it at Timberlux or Millenia Walk again. Uh huh. Wei Min and Alvin join us awhile before they head off for their freelancing work.
Hanging out with Denise and Rongsen after that was pretty whacked, chilling at Starbucks at Bugis was pretty much hmm, how do i phrase it whacked la. Talking from pets, hamsters, arowanas, to practically everything under the sun. Definitely with the company of the decaden eclairs and fraps down there duh.
Was in the train earlier on, i overheard a conversation between this 2 girls, "Eh his shoe nice ar..." - referring to me! I was extremely elated. Heh. Thank You Thank You. I know it's bad to eavesdrop but hell yeah who can't resist a praise right. Twiddle dee.
Stoned Out. Tml work.
"...my heart sank because i'm missing the misses..."
-ends 425-09. I love my brother, friends & families ends -
Question.
I was at Black last night, when i realised being at Zouk was way too pack. Zouk, of course the last ladies night before the renovation works begin was as pack as hell. Uh huh tell me about it. Phuture is no better.
When i was at Black, i realised and came to a factual thought, Whatever happen to Chinablack? I've been a regular there eversince god knows how long, 3 or 4 or even 5 friggin years but now Black is such a letdown. The reputation of what it is supposed to be sort of depleted tremendously throughout the years. It is slowly evolving to the next, yes believe me Coccolatte. Ew.
I'll still do my visits to Black, like they say i am a frequent and regular there. Fairly almost all of the bartenders became a familiar look to me. Leonard, haha, you're from my secondary school man, and yes stumbling upon u in Black and in Simpang a couple of times is yes, a definite nice meet. Rongliang definitely another bartender who is yes a nice beng that has one kind heart. Haha.
Though Black sucks now, i can't help but going there due to the acquaintances and experiences made there.
Zouk - RE VAMPED! i can't wait!
Holidays are pretty fairly well spent with work, fun and friends i guess. =) Twiddle dee. At times i would just wake up, and again feeling bored and now yes, i still am. I would just stay in my room and just recuperate from the all the stress that was acquainted in the past 15weeks. Uh huh. Recuperation is good.
Okie pardon, the bad english. I think it's bad, well it is bad. Because i'm lazy to do a grammar-tical and vocab check at the end of this entry. Bleahz. Serene yesterday evoked one cute question, How does 1 celebrates it's 20th birthday? A nice question to ask since i am turning 20 real soon, and the answer for that... I HAVE NO CLUE. You see nothing is perfect. Having the perfect party or perfect gathering is just hard to come by. Flaws will eventually emerge. How does 1 celebrate a birthday especially the 20th one, god knows. I know i'm having a swell one soon, not a perfect one but one that could actually make me feel elated with the company of my friends.
Life is so full of questions that at times the answers are questions itself. There's no right or wrong. There's a lot of views on how one perceives it. I tell you, no one can ever be prone to questions. Like myself, i ask alot of questions, be it intelligent or just plain crap. Trust me, my mind is one question that no one could answer. Alrighty then, i shall do more designing to keep myself busy.
"....i miss the brother, friends and her, what's more is there in the world...."
-ends liking. I love my brother, friends & families ends-
Uh huh
| Your Summer Ride is a Beetle Convertible |
 Fun, funky, and a little bit euro. You love your summers to be full of style and sun! |
| Your Career Type: Artistic |
 You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic DesignerIllustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary. |
| Your Ideal Relationship is Polyamory |
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| You Are Somewhat Machiavellian |
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How Machiavellian Are You?
| Your Inner Child Is Surprised |
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How Is Your Inner Child?
| How You Are In Love |
 You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You're secretly hoping your partner will change for you. You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance. |
How Are You In Love?
| Your Kissing Purity Score: 60% Pure |
 Lip to lip action makes your heart sing |
Kissing Purity Test
| Your Power Color Is Gold |
 You are engrossed in passions that mentally stimulate you. At Your Lowest: You seek thrills and neglect what's important in your life. In Love: You see dating as adventure and approach it with an open attitude. How You're Attractive: You passion for life makes others passionate about you. Your Eternal Question: "Am I Having Fun?" |
| Your Birthdate: September 30 |
 You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic. You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller. Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue. There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work. You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative. |
What Does Your Birth Date Mean?
| Your Hidden Talent |
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| You Are a Strawberry Daiquiri |
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What Mixed Drink Are You?
| Your Blogging Type is Confident and Insightful |
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| You Are 23 Years Old |
 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
What Age Do You Act?
| What Your Underwear Says About You |
 You are childlike (or childish), and prone to run around in your underwear. |
The Underwear Oracle
| Your Personality Profile |
 A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker.You are good natured and people enjoy your company.You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you. |
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Yes it's pretty obvious by now. Boredom took over the life.
Period.
"....Goodness gracious me...."
-ends a-z i love my bro, friends & families ends-
Adorable Children.
These little children at the orphanage are really such a cute bunch. A bunch that screams your name across the hallway upon seeing you, the ones that run towards you and give you a big hug, the ones that actually put the smile back to my heart. I am very glad that i've been helping out in the orphanage for the past years. It is such a fulfilling task =)
When i have children of my own, i want him or her or maybe both to have long names like me. As long as my name is, i am damn proud of it! Like hello? How isit often do you get someone who takes at least a few minutes shading your name on the OTAS paper during 'O' levels! For those who don't really know what my actual name is.. it's erm yeah here it goes..
Budi Haryanto Syahryzal Iskandar Bin Sa'ad.
Uh huh, tell me about it! What was my parents thinking~!? My name could be a sentence by itself and eventually eat up all the coma's and full stop in it, if there ever is. The only time the parental would spill out that stretch of consenants and vowels, is when yes i make her piss. HAH! which is followed by a loud exhale. Heh.
I am darn proud.
The parental just bought a watch. Why on earth does the parental buy a watch when she only wears it like let me see 10 times a year? And to make it worse, she has to buy Gucci huh! Hello. the son here had been watchless for a year, and i want a damn diesel watch but nooooo, instead of buying me one, she bought herself one!~! Grr. Oh well, i shall take the newly bought watch and sell it off. Hmph. GRRR!
My blogskin. I love my blogskins so far. You know why? Because i did it all by myself. Yes from scratch. From those confusing and constipated (feel like using the term, dun ask me why) html's to even the graphics. And yes my skin is no rip off from blogskins.com or whatever. It is done skillfully (have to be proud of your own work aye!) and yes timelessly on my computer. Designers! Bah, if you can't get what you want, do it yourself! Uh huh. =P
And again, incoming slaps! eek!
Oh yes. I want the ipod nano. That cute little thing that blasts the melody, duh the MP3 player.
Yes nano nanao nano nano nano nano ipod nano for the birthay please! Thank you very much.
The Birthday List.
AIRCON - yes i want an air-conditioner. I can't wait for my new house so i demand one now. I yearn for air-con as long as i stay put on this island. Hmph. Any type is fine, portable, wall, window, etc as long it blasts cool and pleasant molecules for me i am happy.
UNKLE Dunk - uh huh it's been my dream to have own such pair or art work. The pink and black UNKLE Dunk are my dream shoe. It's only $649. That is equivalent to almost 259 and half packets of chicken rice! Wootz. 259 hm it's almost a year you see. so yes those of you that had been saving up chicken rice money for the past year, now is the time to do a good contribution and buy me those pair of shoes, size 11 please. Thank you.
Motorola Raz3r - Another phone? Don't ask me why. I told you before i'm a phone maniac. The Raz3r would be good (the design rocks) and plus i'm used to Motorola now. heh.
20 Mesh caps - The head yearns for all kinds and fit all kinds! Hello Mesh caps, i've only got 10 so far and i want more WAHAHA. 7 deadly sins - i am just a Glutton.
Kahlen - Give me Kahlen from America's Next Top Model and i swear to god i'll love you for life. Well there is Kahlen so yes i will love u for life in my next life that is. Uh huh.
Kahlen = Hot + Cute + MY TYPE.
This is not the end, i just can't think of anything else for now. Yeah i know, you guys can just get me the stuffs on my wishlist, that would be cool too =)! WAHAHA.
"....i came across with someone who can't seem to think individually...."
-ends KAHLEN. I love my brother, friends & families ends-
celebration
Reality.
I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See a liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I'd screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,Help me understand the years.
I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
I wish I would save my soul.I'm so cold from fear.
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I realised my mistakes. I came to my senses, i guess it's tough to accept reality. I thought i understood you but you barely understood yourself. I see my stand where the unpredictable predicts, where the emotions swing. I kept putting my wrong foot forward not realising if it was the right timing or not. I guess a nudge on to my friggin brain woke the senses up. Or practically, a talk is all i need. And it did work. Thanks, i mentioned, do not bottle it up, if not the realisation won't be facing reality and everything will just turn sour. I'm glad we talked instead to grumble our way through than to have irritating and hatred feelings for each other.
Sincere apologies to you.
It's really hard to understand. Really hard. I've yet to understand myself as well. My mind is running wild, having delirious thoughts that i think would affect the friendship but it's depleting soon because i've accepted who you are now and i am glad for that. You don't have to put a front for me, the truth is all i need.
You see, i rely on you alot. I've encounter certain uncertainties that affects the heart lately and yes, i run to you to seek comfort and yes you are one kind soul, i know you are. =) I'm glad that you are there for me even though at times you're not. I'm not complaining but accepting the facts now and yes i'm thrilled because the both of us should be thrilled with our friendship.
And i've said it again now,
Thank you!
You're the best ever, mark my word the best ever.
"...don't carry the world on your shoulders..."
-ends all i say. I love my brother, my friends & my families ends-
Time Really Flies.
Time really flies, i'm actually on my 2nd week of my holidays. Hmph, there i thought i would have 2 more months to go but yeah i do just 1 week lesser. Before you know it, the holidays are done and i'm facing my FYP! goodness crap.
Concentrate on the holidays, izkandar the HOLIDAYS!
My uncle gave me a 2 night chalet thingie for my birthday. Delighted but not really because i was really planning it to be at The Scarlet. But hey gotta accept the family yeah, but thanks alot uncle for the gift =) My birthday bash will be an ass kicking one that is because i am turning the ripeful age of 20! wahaha and yes for the first time ever in my friggin life, my birthday actually falls during the holiday period! Definitely this is something to rejoice about not only that i turned 20.
I've been busy. Yes very busy. Busy doing nothing. But not entirely, i do have work at the parental's and yes i get paid, thrilled i am. I guess the company realised i've been slogging my ass off in the office wy tooo long and decided to pay me and yes a hefty amount due to the past unpaid salaries. Oh well, the boss is my mum heh! WAHAHA well i'm not taking it for granted actually, if they wanna pay me, so let it be.
I have to be in school in 5 hours time for the diploma show meeting and i am not zzz. Gotta be kidding myself, i'm so used with late nights, that the body clock didn't adjust itself. And yes it has not been adjusting since the O levels! I've been doing alot of graphic designs lately. When i'm done with em' i'll post it up my blog.
I noticed something about myself. Never ever, i mean no one should ever message me while i'm sleeping.
(1)I'll reply rubbish.
(2)I'll get mad and snap at anyone with any possible reason.
(3)I'll send my message 3 or 4 times.
(4)I'll talk crap.
(5)I'll slip my phone under my pillow, which is not a good thing.
I apologies to all that suffered from trauma, esp to you bro, WAHAHAHA
So yes never message me whilst i'm sleeping. But true, when do you guys know when i'm kicking the z's? I'm one weird arse. There was once i actually threw my phone onto the floor, nope not accidentally but yeah i thought it was some weird mechanical gadget that's making hell of a noise. Not my current phone, my previous phone. Waking up upon seeing my phone on the floor and you actually know sort half-weary what you did breaks your heart like how you threw the phone on the floor. Hmph!
Like i said wayyyy before, i can't seem to find the right phone for me that could actually last more then 6 months. Pretty irritating. I'm irritated with the temptations the media is giving because it devours my weakness and made it into my fighting element.
Bad media! Bad media! Bahz.
I miss my sister (Michelle aka Mopy) I don't know why but it seemed that i havent seen or hear from her for ages. =(((( Hmm oh well. I hope she's doing fine. Missing the sister and the brother too!!
Oh well, i've been developing painful muscle cramps on my arms.
Yes believe it or not.
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Yes as shocking as it is,
the world must have been turned around,
the big fat izkandar is working out. Period.
What made the change?
Ans: *shrugs*
Oh well i going to do more graphic designing. Ciaoz and maybe a little eyeshut.
"...maybe when i'm you'll realise the importance of me..."
-ends that sentence up there is so overrated. I love my bro, friends & families ends-
Photos.
My room is full of photos. I've got photo's of the brother, of the friends and practically every single junk that seemed to be memorable to me is framed and stuck up the wall. Hm. Well, i'm not the worse junk collector ever but ya as funky as my room is, the amount of junk is pretty incredible. I shall spring clean tomorrow. Heh.
I am feeling much better now why? You can't brood on such things. You can't keep putting your life at stake thinking of such things because life does goes on. If happiness and love is what i yearn for, i should be patient and let it come knocking to my door. I'll wait until the stipulated date but whatever the outcome is, let it be. It is for the best if not it wouldn't be the answer. Regrets definitely will rise up but yes we learn from all regrets and definitely rise to the occassion. Be strong. BE A MAN -- yeah yeah quote by Russel Peters.
This holidays i swear i am jam packed with PARTAYES. coming up, Momo revelation party, next up, party at Attica, Indochine at Wisma coming too, than Coccolatte this monday... EWW never am i gonna step into cocco. I would step in it, if it is the last resort. Never liked Coccolatte at all. Ew. Yah parties and invitations are lining up. Now that is what you call holidays. Uh huh. Come to think of it, Zouk last wednesday was Zouk-ed. Mambo-fied enough? Never. Before the club closes i shall attend it's last party before the new look which is yes on the 17th! Woohoo. Party party party.
Next up, work work work. Yes, of course partying comes with a price. Where do the greens come from, working. Well these are just extra pocket money =) feel good to work.
I've got an interview for a magazine soon woohoo, photoshoots and interview i like, thanks to the uncle.
Story of a budding designer. Bleahz.
I shall now feed the bed.
"....happening, my life...."
-ends us. i love my bro, friends and families ends-
partaye
Hollow.
Emptiness. The emptiness inside me is eating me up. I've no choice but let myself be devoured by this cruel manifestation. I know when it reaches it's peak, i'll struggle my way up and yes, cliche, survive. 11 more days. I'm prepared for the best and also for the worse. So yes, i am prepared for both.
I can't let this ruin my holidays (though for the moment there, i thought it will), i have a good 2 months ahead. Yes i do. I'm one of the representatives of my course for the Diploma and Graduation Show committee, i have freelancing work to be done, i've got parties to attend, i've got more time to help the parental and yes definitely more time to sleep.
Yet, all these could be better if i don't have the, yes, the ultimate word called love, lingering in me. Grr. You see love is blind. It is as blind as it will ever be but yet love is undefined. Ok, i shouldn't rant bout love cos the more i think of it, the more irritating, frustrating it gets. But the doors are open. You see, acceptance for love is the answer for more pain, vice versa. Everything in this world has a win-win solution. Either that nothing is wrong or nothing is right.
And i thought life at times could be superficial. But down right to the last minute ago, it's plain complicated. Literally, puts the compli in cated big time. Sheesh. Besides that, life is still to be treasured be it for love or not.
One judges the outlook of a person to be everything, without going deeper to the heart. But like they mostly say, the looks and the heart doesn't match and if it does, that is one hell of a package. Some are trying hard to look good, and trying hard to be nice, in other words, one just plain uncomfortable in their own skin. Which is pretty true, i've seen it... i've been one of them. But as i grew and learn, i realise being comfortable with oneself is the best thing you could do.
Right now, i'm really bored+feeling empty. I helped Denise with her work to compress files which was pretty tedious because i couldn't the right compressor, damn it. But it went ok for now =) The holidays made me realise my major weakness. My friends. I can't live without any of them. Like i said, they make you happy and they are happy for who you are. I miss em'.
As for my brother, he is one dude, i miss. Holidays are busy for us and yes i haven't met him for ages that is and which triggered the emotional misses. So yes i miss my brother big time. Right now i missing the girl as well. No words could say enough.
11 more days
"...i am missing everyone...."
-ends so hollow. I love my bro, friends and families ends-
What shall i blog?
izk-ed >> the one with the broken heart says:
what shall i blog?
liyana-stopped looking says:
LIYANA
liyana-stopped looking says:
me!!!
izk-ed >> the one with the broken heart says:
ok like what?
liyana-stopped looking says:
ummm
liyana-stopped looking says:
now that youre askin
liyana-stopped looking says:
i have no idea
liyana-stopped looking says:
hahaha
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Enough said.
Ok.
I just reached home from Zouk.
Thought clubbing would take my mind away from the sadness.
But it doesn't.
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The heart still yearns.
The heart still needs.
The anxiety.
The anticipation.
The answer.
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Plus now, i miss my brother.
We're going through the same trauma with our other halfs.
I really miss my brother.
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The broken heart has yet to be mended.
Need.
I need a break from life. Wait, i'm having my holidays now. Then again, i still need a break for life. Relationship woes, arose. I shall put it aside, let it not affect the daily life. Putting all torment aside though i know it lingers vividly in my mind.
I met up with Nadi, Nadia, Din, Sofi, Nadi Tq friend + Gf and yeah many more. Cooking spree is pretty much fun especially with whacky people around. Let me see, whipping up Mash Potatoes, Mushroom and Broccoli Pasta, Breaded Cajun Chicken, Apple Crumble with Vanilla Sauce is pretty much a carbohydrate feast. It took my mind away from such agony earlier so cooking, slacking, chatting was fun, cool. Nad drove me home in her dad's awesome, kickass car. Thanks mate! =)
I've been observing the whole day, when the holidays arrive, i'm pretty much a bore. I woke up today feeling bored. Not knowing what to do, not knowing what am i going to do in next minute is a big issue. Oh well, moments like this, are gold. This pot gold will last me for 2 months until the next holidays that is. Hm. Tomorrow i have to head school, for this dip show meeting, etc. Then in the night clubbing. Interesting but yet i need to get me some moolahs now. Thank god for freelancing, greens rolled. Moolahs oughta be saved. =)
If the parental would give my nets, the cash in it will go *poof* in the next 3 days, trust me. I'd buy things that are not worthy off and of course buy things that you think it's the most important thing in the world but after submitting the greens at the cashier within 3 seconds later you realised you just bought something that you don't even need. For example, a guy buying a girl's bra. Maybe there is some way or some how in the future it will come into good use oh well. A girl's bra makes fantastic slingshots tho. -.-
I'm eyeing this teeshirt. I shall get it tomorrow.
13 days left
"...oh well bro, you gave weird messages, but who says best friends need to be understood. lol..."
-ends heart broken. i love my bro, friends and families ends-
Girl - "I thought you weren't interested. I thought you were busy. But you didn't mention you still had feelings for me. Why now?"
Boy - "You had someone else. I let it be."
Girl - "But it's over now. Because my heart is not settled."
Boy - "Settled?"
Girl - "Settled with you."
Boy - silence
Girl - "But now, i can't i'm going away, again. I'm leaving the country to stay with my family."
Boy - "Why again? Why isit now? For how long..Why do chances run away endlessly.."
Girl - "A year, or more..Destiny or fate, let it be. I can't still decide. Let it be."
Boy - "You decide your destiny. My destiny to be with you is yearned to be."
Girl - "We'll see, 20th September? My flight.. will you be there?
Boy - "Will you ever be..."
silence
Boy - "14 days to decide... so will see?"
Girl - "Yeah.. will see."
Boy - "You know i'll be there for you. You know i'm there for you. You know my heart is always for you.
Girl - teared
Girl - "We'll see..I lo..ve.. y.. erm We'll see."
Boy - "Just say it, cos you know i will."
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My broken heart waits in anticipation.
It's Time To Party I Say.
The work, the assignments, everything is done! I'm over with school, for this semester that is. I am free. I am happy and yes i am FREE. You see the word free doesn't come by in my life that often you see, so capitalising it shows how big of a deal it is. I shall repeat, and rub it in the faces of others mugging their exams and stuffs,
I AM FREE FROM SCHOOL ASSIGNMENTS!
bahz. Incoming of slaps are coming my way.
I can now officially complain, i'm tired of sleeping, i'm tired of doing nothing and i'm yes doing nothing! another term that doesn't come by easily. Though i have freelancing to do, but freelancing is different you see because, YOU EARN THE GREENS. It's like a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow, something you could actually attained after doing up the whole freelancing job. And yes, freelancing rocks, especially doing it with my brother!
As you all can see, a new resident made it's debut in my residential. A pair of Vandal Gold dunks. Oh yes. Oh yes. The sight of it, gave me an instant orgasm. I bought it at Zouk's Flea Market on Sunday. I swear. This pair of vandals, sat down there eyeing for an owner, it was eyeing for me. You know the shit, fate and destiny, i am fated to see it but it's my destiny whether should i purchase it. AND YES I DID! even though it's half a size smaller but surprisingly, I COULD FIT! I was extremely elated. EXTREMELY i say! So hello new shoes. Pretty blinger shoes. I love'em!
Flea markets are the best, especially the ones held in Zouk. Great deals, cheap stuffs, good bargains and designer goods. =)
Yippee dooda.
What shall i do next, nothing? or more nothing? God knows, i've nothing to do and i am restless. I just bought myself a gold mesh cap, yeah you see it sorta matches the ones down there! hah! And also i bought my brother a green and black mesh cap =)
Clubbing. I hear the club booms my name. I hear the dancefloor crave for my feet. I hear the clubs calling. Hello PARTAYES!
Ok i'm kinda delirious. Uh Huh. Yes. party party, fun fun, yeah!
What's best when you're working at home with greens rolling in, own time own target and still you can have fun. I swear this rocks. I am still working with the parental in the office too! The boss's Son, ahaha. I just did alot of computer work actually which is actually such an eyesore.
Normally i would end up, graphically designing or blogskin changing. Heh.
I am loving my blog now. yes i am. =)
"I realised the same motion occurs, when work and relationship comes into your life. I'm again forgotten. I wish you could remember the quality times we had. Oh boy, wasn't it fun. The holidays are here, why not another shot at it for old time sake?"
-ends partaye! I love my bro, friends and families ends-
