Fucktards
It's funny how other people tend to find my happiness as their misery. Then again, it puzzles me. Why does my happiness (which is my life) affect others? Instead of them being happy themselves, they decide to pull other people, in this circumstance; me, to join in their clique. I maybe a saddistic loser, an appaling drinker or even a stupid learner but dragging me to join their club of depression; by calling me names or insults is quite stupid though. It amazes me because, i was wondering, what do they gain from their so called "Brave" actions? I mean if they have the courage as tough as metal to say out such things, why can't they do it face to face? Yes, i'm bombarding questions by questions. Wanna bet? every answer will be rather suggestive of self-defense.
Simply because, they have no right reason to fight it back intelligently. Tsk. It's hillarious on how some wants friendship to be broken or whatever might cause the agony in me. It's double the hillarious on why at times people action puts the word jealousy somewhere in their bags and denies the word because they have ego size of the twin towers. Tsk tsk.
Those people who tries to bring me down, tries to destroy the friendship of me and my best friend, i'll give you one hint; try harder.
(Think twice before jumping into conclusions, this entry might not be about you)
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My fatigueness had taken it's toll. I am dead now simply because... (just read the damn poster below)
"...the death of me..."
All Hail Perfume Generics
If you guys lately visit our dear Guardian Pharmacies, you will notice a certain product that greets you that screams, "COME BUY ME YOU CHEAP WHORE!". Uh huh, its those Perfume Generics. What on earth are those? Practically they are; a more scientific way of explaining is that they are a re-production of well known eau de toilettes found in the market, which costs way cheaper than the original. Simply said, it's perfume piracy. Uh huh.
I thought cheap imitation perfumes (such as; Hugo Boss, Davidoff, Polo Sport, etc) could only be found at Pasar Malams or if you frequent KL, the all so famous Petaling Street. Well those kinds apparently, are the diluted versions of the perfume, being inserted into the original bottle. They have a high amount of H2O causing the fragrance to deplete, A.S.A.P. or either that, it stains your pretty little tops. AND especially those who perspire worse than a pig, it simply blends in well with your own liquid giving out a scent horrifying enough to scare the living daylights of the ants crawling over your toe.
Perfume Generics; on the other hand, doesn't come in the original bottle, it has the right dosage of everything and it smells exactly like the original, for e.g. Davidoff - Coolwater. It lasts, it doesn't stain and yes final-freaking-ly, it's CHEAP. I'm such an epitome of cheapo. TSK.
Go grab you Perfume Generics at any Guardian near you, only @ $5.00! =) Refill sold separately.
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I'm a little stoned out, yesterday's sleepover was whacked enough to even play Dog and Bone in the friggin' pool at 345 am in the morning. Forget the shivering coldness, but it was helluva good time. Yeap and off they went to overseas for PARTAYE! boohoo to me, i'm stuck at this "soon to be depleted" island celebrating the New Year. I'm not complaining because what's better off to spend the New Year with your buddy old best pal and friends =)
I met my cousin earlier on, to pass my iPod. Why? She's going to Australia and my girlfriend simply called me earlier saying that she wants to borrow the video. I was like -_-". I'll be iPod-less for months, provided she comes back for Chinese New Year heh. Well, for the sake of love, i bid goodbye to my iPod, for the time being =P
I became all depressed, pissed and irritated at approximately 1am earlier because...
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I LOST MY FRIGGIN' THUMBDRIVE.
Argh. How can i not be blowing my top (with myself that is). I screamed, yelled, called and if possible bomb the blardie house down with my raging fury (such exaggeration) If someone stole it, argh i would definitely, chop the person's arms and limbs and stuffed in a bag and trashed it out at either city hall or bugis because Orchard is a little over-rated.
ARGH.
The weather lately had been very kind. It gives wonderful climate and temperature for everyone of us to just snuggle in bed =) But hey, WAKE UP IZK!! YOU GOT FYP TO DO!!! Argh. I realised i mentioned "Argh" thrice. Argh. ok four times. Anyway, i've got FYP to do, and i'm going clubbing in the night and not forgetting, NYE. Okok, like they say, tomorrow is another day, and again another day and another day. Argh (OMG! enough with the arghs!) Period.
Either i die in my sleep now and forget about FYP or just let me die in my sleep.
"...howdy ho cherio..."
Post Christmas Sleepover
Currently i'm at Alex's place for some crap shit post christmas sleepover party, he claimed. The usuals are here; Ilyana, Daniel, Syam, Sarah, Deb, etc. Slacking at his sofa surrounded by these fools throwing popcorn at each other while watching Skeleton Key. We're all having such a nonsensical fun time, literally.
With Absolut Cranberry, Vanilla, Jack Daniels, Bombay Sapphire and Malibu nicely aligned infront of me. With scattered chips around and to die for SYAM'S chickpea dip. What am i doing on the laptop? For fun la! I've watched Skeleton Key and yeah we're just slacking around having some post yuletide fun. Twiddle hee. I just rode illegally using Dan's vespa to the nearest 7-11. EEK thank god for the practice in Vietnam a year back wahaha.
As usual, we were crapping and bitching entire night, throwing pillows and stuffs. Dancing around the Christmas tree like god knows retarded fairies on crack. The weirdest thing, the parental joined. I know don't ask me why but they're a bunch of whacko's too (with much respect) LOL.
We had retarded conversations that at times left me clueless. -_-"
[[Conversation 1]]
Sarah: Ehhhh where's Steph??
Me: (concentrating on the computer, trying hard to play MAPLE) Ah she ar, at home, at home.
Sarah: WHY NEVER ASK HER COME??
Me: (Still concentrating) She ar Phuket Phuket la.
Sarah: OEI. SHE AT HOME OR PHUKET??
Me: (Deep intense concentration going on) Australia laaaaaaaaaaaaa..
Sarah: Huh?
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Note:
The level of my concentration while playing, a sort off new game, really made my brain 100% occupied with nothing else but the game. Therefore, if you needa million bucks, ask me when the time is right.
[[Conversation 2]]
Daniel:Pass the chip le Bong(nickname for Alex)
Alex, who was tippity high then, grab a bag of something and passed it to Daniel.
.....in 2 minutes everyone in the room burst out laughing!
Alex, who didn't know the commotion, joined in the laughter.-_-"
Alex: Eh why sia you all laughhhh...??
Ilyana: What the fuck~!? you pass Dan your fuckin' bag of underwear la!~!~ WAHAH (the underwear is new as it was a gift from his other half that night)
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Note:
Underwear and chips can highly be mistaken for being the same thing. Therefore beware of the risk when eaten.
[[Conversation 3]]
Sarah: Eh why never bring your bro along~!?? (while she attempts to give that blardie flirtatious look to me)
Me: Eyhhh? for what.. he don't know you all leee...
Sarah: Can make friends what~!! You always talk about him... bring him meet me leee.. (as the eyes flutter -_-")
Me: Ahhh... you arse.
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A clear point shown here that, one's attempt to get to know a guy can be quite bluntly laid out. She never knew my brother and always had a crush on him when he saw all my pics. Talking about love at first, erm photo. Jason, again you didn't know about this until you've read this entry. HAHA.
We're having nonsensical fun right now. It's weird when everyone pesters me to bring my gf and my brother to the sleepover. And they don't even know them at all LOL. Well one day i hope :) One's away in Phuket and the other one, while i type is away having fun just like me i guess wahahaha. I swear drunkards always tell the truth wahaha.
Alright i'm off to add powder into Syam's bike. WAHAHA.
"...lovin' every moment..."
White Once More
I oughta be spanked. I am supposed to do my FYP but no, i side-tracked and change my blogskin, again. Argh. Okie, i oughta be delighted with my new blogskin (which i am) but i am rather pissed with myself with my short attention span. TSK.
From black and now it's back to the basic white, it seemed more refreshing aye? heh.
I am sorry May, instead solving your blog music problem, again i side-tracked and fondled with my blog. I have a little problem, geocities had been giving me problems that's why my blog is music-less lately. I'll try to solve the problem before i edit yours yah. I have no idea why, every window i open with some music inclined device, hangs my darn computer. Now that's new, it never happened before. Well well, let me see what i can do first. =)
Christmas is fairly over but wait, there is 12 days of Christmas aye, and now as i type it's boxing day.
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A silent prayer in remembrance of the Tsunami that happened on this very date a year ago.
-hush hush-
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Ok, anyone heard the song from Friday Hill - Baby Goodbye? God i'm such teen pooper or whatever it is. I gotta admit the song rock my socks off. Uh huh. Go listen it damn it. HAHA. A little sneak peak.
I wanted you to go your way,
I wanted me to go mine,
I, sittin here thinking,
Passing good time,
I wanted you to go your way,
I wanted me to go mine,
I never thought you'd say,
Baby goodbye
HEH, like that works *roll eyes* Meeting up with Shahnaz later on for god knows what are we gonna do on Boxing day. This is sorta way due, but 98.7 is funneh (sarcastically) On friday i send in my sms for the Longest word jumble thingie and god damn it i got the longest word, the DJ Young (i think thats the way you spell his name aye), mentioned proudly on the radio that the word "Singleetrees" is not found in the dictionary. Here i am staring blankly at my mornitor, while the dictionary.com window flashes its meaning right into my face. -_-" Ergh. NO FAIR.
The definition which clearly means:
The pivoted horizontal crossbar to which the harness traces of a draft animal are attached and which is in turn attached to a vehicle or an implement. Also called singletree, swingletree, also called regionally whippletree.
Injustice.
And later on in the night, there was some newsflash kinda thing and the DJ i say, stumbled on his words rather alot. The one i remember clearly was about some dish at some restaurant if i am not wrong. Instead of saying the sentence, "This delicious dish..." he clearly mentioned, "This delicious DICK..." i swear, i burst out laughing; while he muffled and stagger to get the right word back. YAH right at his face, where almost at least the whole island listening to the station. HAHA.
Okaye, i'm off to sleep.
"...baby goodbye..."
Jolly hoe Mistletoe It's Christmas
I am definitely elated this year for Christmas. Not only it's the season of giving but hohoho, it's the best season ever! The Christmas atmosphere this year is definitely in the air. Can't you here the sleigh bells ringing? I was in school yesterday and the atmostphere was again, fantabulous. Saw a group of students having a nice sweet candle lit dinner in school, it was such a sweet sight. As for me, i headed off to my friend's place for some yuletide gathering. And yes, instead of snow, we had pouring rain last night, grr,
So much for dressing up for dinner.
Headed to The Daffodils, to Sarah's place for the dinner. It's more of a reunion thingie though haha. Syam, Dylan, Sam, Andy, Rachel, Melissa, etc were there digging into the turkey by the time i got there WAHAHA. Exchanged gifts woohoo. I got NUM vouchers from Dylan and the funneh thing i bought him a NUM tee. LOL. The irony. HAA.
It was a nice dinner =)
Okie i might be ranting all the jolly fun life i had yesterday huh, but who cares, you're at my blog so god damn it read it! haha.
Later in the night, met up with Gwen (who came back all the way from HONG KONG LOL) and Brother Jas, for supper. Okie initial plan is to just pig out at Simpang but since we had the car, with the bro behind the wheels, we zoomed off to Thomson for prata. Don't ask me why Thomson, it was Gwen's suggestion. =P
We had a nice catch up session and all with the ultimately pack Prata House which is sorta good but ultimately ripped our money off. Hallo, prata's and murtabak's and stuffs costs a hefty price of 20 moolahs! TSK.
Gave gwen a pretty red box of Famous Amos goodies =)
Exchanged gifts again haha. I bought Jason a big box of erm.. everything? A cool looking cap, an extremely outrageous black and gold tee, a framed up memoir poem written by yours truly and famous amos goodies =). And guess what he gave me in return!!??.
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He bought me a watch, that i mentioned that i wanted it at this shop like a month ago!!!!!!!!!!! It was super darn unexpected for him toget me a watch, especially that watch =) + he gave me a four leave clover pendant as well, because everyone needs luck for the FYP wahahaha. =)
Wa.. i was speechless la, i got the watch that i exclaimed way back and he went all the way to Far East Square to get it. Awww =))))) Happy happy.
Thanks bro!!
Told ya i was elated.. hohoho!
I've gotten a V3 from the significant one, a Metal watch and a pendant from the brother, NUM vouchers from Dylan, A box of chocolates from Sarah, Coolwater perfume from Syam and many more. Wohooo! Told ya i'm friggin elated.
And now, 24/12/2005
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But she's not in Singapore to celebrate it though =(
i hope she likes the gift i bought her! Woo =)
Happy birthday parental!
Tally ho all! Merry Christmas!!
"...happy yuletide..."
I Was A Weird Santa Today
Okaye, today was just plain confusing and weird. I haven't been blogging for quite sometime and within that short period alot had happened. The one that hit me deep was, ok i know it MAY sound stupid to some people, but yah, one of my cats is severely, intensely and incurably sick. =( Hey, i have a soft sport for domestic pets alright and i would go out to all ends for them. Devoted pet lovers should know. So as i was saying, my cat was diagnosed as mentally unstable around a few months back, but it's recent visit to the vet, another bad news slammed. He's turning blind anytime soon and currently everything to him is just a blur.
The trauma, and i thought that was bad enough. =(
Another slamming news was that, he's been foaming lately and having feats causing it to have a severe trauma attack. With a blood test taken (which costs a hefty price of $337!), it was indicated that, he has a blood infection (not leukemia) that is incurable. Wa lao eh. How am i not supposed to be sad?
He's a friggin' cat, a very cute cat, and he's bombarded with all these shit. I swear it's heartbreaking. The doctor gave me a choice, either end it's suffering now or let it live to it's lifespan (which is detected around 6 months only) Argh. It's so heartbreaking. I could cry and wallow non-stop and to make matters worse, it's my mum's adored cat. ARGH.
All i can say, i'm tormented, torn, dillem-matic and confused. Crap. =(
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This doesn't stop from the joy of giving during Christmas, after the long trip to the vet at Bukit Timah, i went all the way to Tampines Mall to grab Christmas gifts for me pals =) I bought 12 nicely wrapped boxes filled with famous amos cookies for my pals and of course i shopped for the best friend. As for the girl friend, i bought something erm, un-expected for her last week hehe. Well, ask my friends to know what it is haha.
*kinky*
I always enjoy the this season, i enjoy the season of giving and i don't expect anything in return. Seeing the smiles and happiness when one receives gifts really makes you feel extremely content. Now, that makes the world a better place to live in =)
I'm meeting Gwen tomorrowfor supper! yay! At last about time. After the confusing, un-wanted confusion/turmoil earlier in the day, it's settle for tomorrow. Hello GWEN my dinosaur buddy =P.
Like i mentioned, i was a weird santa today. Sadness and happiness bombarded me today. Twiddle ho. Anyway, i'm off for now to wrap up the gift for the mother (her birthday falls on Christmas eve!)
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I'm listening to the radio now..
Conversation
Caller: This Christmas dedication goes to all Maple+(some guild/gang kinda thing)
Dj Shan: So you're in a game society or something?
Caller: No no, is just a gang in game.
Dj Shan: So what game isit? Pictionary or monopoly or something?
Caller: Er no, it's an online game.
Dj Shan: Oh like solitaire, mahjong, yahoo stuffs ain't it?
Caller: -_-" Noo, it's called Maple story.
Dj Shan: Oh.
(with thoughts running through his mind, "What the hell is that?!"
It was rather obivious because of the awkward silence he gave.)
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Eek, Deejays don't really know everything. Tsk.
"...season of giving and loving, happy yuletide..."
happy chrismukkah~
Deck The Halls
Currently i'm architectural drafting and perspective drawing. And in 6 days time or so, it's Happy Honica.
Currently i'm architectural drafting and perspective drawing. And in 6 days time or so, it's Happy Honica.
How festive. -_-"
I've got my first Christmas present today which made me smile =) I've bid farewell to my, erm 5 month old Motorola E398 (still a baby i tell u..) and now the residence practically had made a new resident.
Hello V3! =)
Thanks to my one and only significance, she bought me another communicating gadget for Christmas.
I swear she's hinting on something =P
Tired. Extremely tired, i'm gonna be broke soon (i hope not!) just paid off Tan Yan my debt now that's clear, i feel so much better =)
FYP.
Tired. Extremely tired, i'm gonna be broke soon (i hope not!) just paid off Tan Yan my debt now that's clear, i feel so much better =)
FYP.
Fuck your projects.
Apparently, this projects serves much more off a different purpose right now. Which is to make us DIE. I repeat, DIE. It's an epidemic. Out to get every single year 3's out there. But it spreads much faster then SARS or the Chicken flu. It seems to be extremely contagious and deadly therefore i swear stay clear of us,
the year 3's.
Saturday's school and Ministry of Sound at night was a blast. It left me dumbfounded. The interior just left me speechless. Ok i got no words to describe it. It is an experience where all should go and yes, experience it. Haa.
Here i am struggling hard for my 2pm pin up and i receive an invite to Ministry of Sound this Wednesday. Argh! How friggin' irritating. Me + 1 woohoo. but my "woohoo's" were cut short because the next day is my dreadful FYP. Argh. I have an invite for free to a damn good club and i'll be stuck at home working my ass off. Fine whatever.
Holly jolly ho ho. It's Christmas soon. I wished it snowed. And on my faithful FYP day there'll be a snow storm. That stops all schools from functioning because the blardie school is all iced up and glazed. I wish.
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I shall continue to kill myself with more work now.
"...Nankuru Naisa..."
And the story continues...
liyana says:
PROVE MY LOVE
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after a minute or two waiting, she decide to declare her undying love to my beloved brother, like at last.
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liyana-iaminlovewithjason says:
ok did
ok did
My best friend, my dear brother; he such a lucky arse i tell you. Not only he gained presents during this merry-licious season but also a NEW FOUND LOVE. Aww.
Ain't that swell, i hear church bells coinciding with the sleigh bells now.
I'm such an angel :)
Not long after; she seeked approval and declare her love to the parental,
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.......bam...ed ...the silent massacre 13/12 says:
you sure not
liyana-iaminlovewithjason says:
yesh yesh
liyana-iaminlovewithjason says:
soooooooooo in luuuuuuuuuuuuuurve
Weddin' march, turtle doves, rose petals and sparkling champagne. woohoo.
skanky.
Someone Will be Delighted
liyana says:
I LUUURRRRRVE JASON
_®izk-ed* >> floating christmas and milady rawk my world. says:
SEE SEE
liyana says:
SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH
liyana says:
TELL HIM THAT
liyana says:
GO GO GO
_®izk-ed* >> floating christmas and milady rawk my world. says:
OKAYE
liyana says:
I LUUURRRRRVE JASON
_®izk-ed* >> floating christmas and milady rawk my world. says:
SEE SEE
liyana says:
SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH
liyana says:
TELL HIM THAT
liyana says:
GO GO GO
_®izk-ed* >> floating christmas and milady rawk my world. says:
OKAYE
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See, love is all around during this festive season =)
Ok school was fine (shockingly), the silent review, god knows whether it went well or not? Well the best friend aka brother invited me over his place last night to burn the midnight oil. You see, doing work with a companion, is just the best. And yes, with our dreading eyes, we drove to school the following morning.
With a night of no sleep, 24/7 working. Made all of us; Me, Jason, Weimin, Liyana, Mel and Jacq absurdly high. LOL. Tsk. Well, i will deserve a good night rest, soon heh.
Ya' know what?
I love my girlfriend and my brother alot. Period. A second with them is never enough. Hah!
-cherished-
I'm in a good mood today. Don't ask me why but i am. I've got a smile so wide today that people might think i'm on crack. tsk. If days were like this, ain't it good? haha. So it rained. And yes it did. I am going to seize this moment as if it was my last alright! Hitting the pillows with such to-die-for weather lately seems impossible/imaginative/unbelievable/jaw strickened; as though pigs flying was a daily sight. =P
I've wanted the L6 like mentioned in my wishlist but after utilising it for a while, exploring the means of the phone and trying to appreciatte it's aesthetic appearance, it made me think twice. Bro just had the phone and i was grumbling to him that he sorta stole my dream phone but hey both of us using Motorola now, told yah we're brothers. Anyway back to the phone; as slim as it is, i didn't know it was slightly to the huge side. And looks a little funneh up close and personal. So i might reconsider la.
Or i'll just grab the motorola razor in pink. HAHA.
Just a random memory to add up to my happiness.....
"...i've always had faith in such strong bond, don't worry, after what happened, even though you're not technically brothers but like the saying goes, blood is thicker than water..." - quoted from my girlfriend last two months or so. I thank her for that and kept believing what she said and pray every single day that everything will go back to what it used to be and guess what,
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blood is definitely thicker than water (technically or not)
Best friends are always there for you either physically or not, and i'll treasure every moment of it. Definitely a sibling god forgot to give.
The girlfriend is planning somethin' for me, god knows what and she's being all secretive about it. Hmm. I wonder.
*twiddle dee*
I'm gonna hit comfies. Ciaoz.
"....i may not say it but here it goes, i told you so...."
always a blast
Redeeming Myself ( a very long entry that supposed to be written eons ago =P)
I did my own self reflection, where i sit one corner of my bed thinking and pondering of the mistakes in my life that actually made me learn something out of it. And boy! the amount of mistakes i've done could actually bury me deeper into the grave man. =/
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wait before i continue, i wanna say this; ZOUK OUT was a blast!
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Anyway, but things that happen during the pass few months really hurt the shit outta me. It could be due to my mistakes, my ruthless actions; it could even be the little devil in me speaking it's wrath out. For instance, "The Birthday Party" Haa. Yes, a whole lot know what happened during "The Birthday Party". I didn't even have to mention what happen but for those who came, it was rather obvious as though it was stated on the invitations. I mean, it was my Birthday, for once i would rather have something more to myself.
If no one wouldn't want to say thank you to me but at least let me have a thank you for myself (LOL don't ask me why) With my 20 years of living in this one of an arse world, i swear i have to thank myself to bring me where i am now. So i decided to be plain selfish on that particular day. Hey, like it's about time i think for myself for once right? I want a day to spend time with my friends and with my brother; no strings attached, just some fun, some catch up well a bond. But nope, things just have to start off at a wrong beginning.
Which made me realised, putting myself as first in line would end up bad. As a matter of fact, it ended up really bad; putting a bad cloud hovering over me on my god damn party. It's not about the party failing, it's not about the caterer's not comin' on time; is about friendship. After 1 month of planning, here i thought my 20th Birthday would be a blast. It was but it wasn't entirely. My birthday every year, ceased to suck. Cut things short;
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It sucks when two best friends had a fight, on such a faithful day.
If i was given a chance, i would turn back time and would actually not think for myself. I would try not to say the wrong things but again things are done, and what done is done and i hell learn alot from it. Truth be told, i guess the word "HURT" was spelled on my face incessantly on that day, and actually from that day onwards lol. But i thank the rest for coming, because you guys made me a smile with a dark cloud over me.
For me i guess, apologising numerous of times (apologies are never too late/enough) would be good but i realised when i don't get an apology in return as well, i think it's definitely me to be blame. Sheesh i really think so man. =(
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What a cruel mistake. =( Haa.. "The Birthday Party"
I did my own self reflection, where i sit one corner of my bed thinking and pondering of the mistakes in my life that actually made me learn something out of it. And boy! the amount of mistakes i've done could actually bury me deeper into the grave man. =/
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wait before i continue, i wanna say this; ZOUK OUT was a blast!
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Anyway, but things that happen during the pass few months really hurt the shit outta me. It could be due to my mistakes, my ruthless actions; it could even be the little devil in me speaking it's wrath out. For instance, "The Birthday Party" Haa. Yes, a whole lot know what happened during "The Birthday Party". I didn't even have to mention what happen but for those who came, it was rather obvious as though it was stated on the invitations. I mean, it was my Birthday, for once i would rather have something more to myself.
If no one wouldn't want to say thank you to me but at least let me have a thank you for myself (LOL don't ask me why) With my 20 years of living in this one of an arse world, i swear i have to thank myself to bring me where i am now. So i decided to be plain selfish on that particular day. Hey, like it's about time i think for myself for once right? I want a day to spend time with my friends and with my brother; no strings attached, just some fun, some catch up well a bond. But nope, things just have to start off at a wrong beginning.
Which made me realised, putting myself as first in line would end up bad. As a matter of fact, it ended up really bad; putting a bad cloud hovering over me on my god damn party. It's not about the party failing, it's not about the caterer's not comin' on time; is about friendship. After 1 month of planning, here i thought my 20th Birthday would be a blast. It was but it wasn't entirely. My birthday every year, ceased to suck. Cut things short;
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It sucks when two best friends had a fight, on such a faithful day.
If i was given a chance, i would turn back time and would actually not think for myself. I would try not to say the wrong things but again things are done, and what done is done and i hell learn alot from it. Truth be told, i guess the word "HURT" was spelled on my face incessantly on that day, and actually from that day onwards lol. But i thank the rest for coming, because you guys made me a smile with a dark cloud over me.
For me i guess, apologising numerous of times (apologies are never too late/enough) would be good but i realised when i don't get an apology in return as well, i think it's definitely me to be blame. Sheesh i really think so man. =(
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What a cruel mistake. =( Haa.. "The Birthday Party"
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There was also the time when the other half went to Australia. It was the most confusing period ever. I have no clue what to say or what not to say. I may trigger alot by saying another thing and by not saying either.
There was also the time when the other half went to Australia. It was the most confusing period ever. I have no clue what to say or what not to say. I may trigger alot by saying another thing and by not saying either.
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I guess my biggest mistake is to let you go Australia. =(
It's really tough when we're continents away (literally) No words could let me say in this paragraphy but seriously the biggest mistake is to let you go and leave for the land down under.
It's really tough when we're continents away (literally) No words could let me say in this paragraphy but seriously the biggest mistake is to let you go and leave for the land down under.
Ah. The major one. The absolute King of Queens.
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I lost my best friend because of blogging? Because of the frankness of my blog? Because of my witty comments? Because of erm... god knows what.
I wrote a trade mark, apology entry which i should re-paste it.
"I wonder
I'm not gonna change the way i write about things. I'm not going to change the way i release my thoughts. I have not insulted people who has done nothing wrong to me, i repeat nothing wrong to me. Nonetheless, i've never actually extend my limits.
But i wonder why, there are things that people took it the wrong way. Never did anyone thought my entries were malicious enough to actually ruin anyone's reputation and never did i thought of that too. Majority of my entries are my normal boring daily life. Alot, trust me alot of people, more than you can think off out there who read my blog would actually pass it off as everything i wrote as utter rubbish or nothing worth enough to actually to ponder about or lastly to be affected by it.
Oh well, we oughta face the fact, we're open to a very frank and straight forward society. The generation now, apparently accept voiced out opinions with an open mind. The percentage of people now who has mindsets that maybe they picked up during the vintage years (wahaha) couldn't even fill up the entire block, whereas the people of this day and age could actually just take up the whole world. bahz!
I believe that blogs are dynamic. The era of blogging have just started, and we are only seeing the tip of the humongous iceberg yet. Blogs are, right now, still an untested platform for marketing, and I believe it has a huge potential to take over some traditional media but it doesn't mean that my blog had shine to all the newspapers or media or local families neither internationally. I know it's on the world wide web, then again, i'm a nobody, not even my 13th floor neighbour know about me, or my cousins in particular, they don't even know i own a blog, they won't want to read my entries. Their lives are better than mine! My point is, my blog is neutral and so am i, i write things that just pop in my mind. I write things that i know will never hurt people closest to my heart, but in certain circumstances i don't know why things are perceived wrongly. =/. Then again, if anyone of you find my entries offensive/provocative/controversial/ or could actually trigger world war III (LOL), my suggestion is,
Don't read my blog.
They say shit happens. Unexpected shit. And people change and also people change people. For now everything is left stagnant, confused, hurt, still confused, hungry (lol) and yah again plain confused and sad. Though i really wish, i could turn back the hands of time but i still know there is still a window of opportunity. Blood is thicker than water.
I'm sorry.
It's the first time i apologise from maybe a slip of tongue (which i still wonder). I have done my part of apologising of maybe that i've actually offend, the "not this day and age" people. I have done my part by being the better person. And i actually i apologise from the bottom of my heart sincerely.
Just that, i write my blog the way i should i write it afterall it is my domain. If the way you perceive it sounds crude and rude and just would make everything wrong (lol) than it's your choice. Alot have accept my blog nothing more but a harmless twit lol. I pardon my sarcasm and my "profound" language lol, like i say it's me. It's about time that fresh air of the millenium or whatever generation we're in now kicked in and try to get use to it.
If this clarification entry is provocative or offensive enough, i guess that's funny, because my entries have never been utterly serious. LOL. "
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I have no clue, what mistake it is but i sure do know that it is a mistake that changed who i am now. It's a mistake that's embedded in me for life, for eternity. Call me foolish, dumb or exagerrated but seriously, that mistake is hell of a mistake.
Apologies that could last a lifetime but like i said i didn't get an apology in return, it's clearly i'm to be shamed off. It changes me, i learn alot from that. Even others might say it isn't my fault but i know it is.
Even though i've gained my best friend back. I'm skeptical because i'm scared i may repeat the mistakes unknowingly again. Tell me if you had forgave me, tell me i'm acknowledged back as your brother cause i repeat i'm damn friggin' scared if my mistakes are repeated =(
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.
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(P.S. It's a long written entry, and no offence to anyone. I'm just doing some self reflection. Unknown taggers, just leave comments to yourself thank you very much.)
Rather Complicated
I have no sleep (maybe an hour), i rushed around after that, i'm doomed for FYP, i'm going crazy and i'm going into a comatose state soon.
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Today is really complicating. It really is. =/
I am so tired that i guess my toes decide to retire before i do. FYP made me loose 2kg. Delighted, not... i don't know. You see there are times, when you run around, rushing other matters (family including) people don't just understand our other half of our priorities. I am plain pissed with my working attitude myself.
Why can't i be those muggers that produce quality work?
Why can't i be those muggers that get away with everything?
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Life is just complicating, biased, irritating and
I guess everyone else thinks the same way, definitely. Again, damn you pandora.
Again and again i always try to look at the brighter side of life, which actually keeps me going. I remember once when i was 18, i overheard a radio conversation. There was this guy who claimed that he knew the true meaning of life. When the DJ asked how old he was; 13 was his reply.
I broke out laughing hysterically. I guess the DJ did too. I'm 18 then, yet the true meaning of life doesn't seem to be on my "i-know" list. Let me see at 18 i guess the main thing on my mind is, "Yes i'm in the first stage of legalness!" Geez, to know at 13, boy he must have a hectic life. PSLE must be suicidal for him.
Again, life is complicated. I maybe living to a ripe old age of 80, married with 2 kids and die later on. Hmm. But first let me be wealthy, married with 2 kids and die at 80. Uh huh, life. LOL
It's that time again when i miss the girlfriend and the best friend. =(
I'm gonna wash up and head off to bed before heading to a wild start of endless assignments in the morning.
"....i have no direction in life...."
How Coincidental
I swear the Gods are toying around with me. Does it occur everytime when i have my Major project class tml? WHY WHY? Why not when i can sleep in and snuggle all night through? But instead, the waters have to drop now. or any other day before FYP. ARGH.
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LET ME SLEEP WITH RAIN POURING OUTSIDE LE.
(on a friday preferably. NOT this saturday. but sunday oso can. )
Crazy
That kinda lovin'
Makes me wanna pull
Down the shade, yeah
That kinda lovin'
Yeah, now I'm never gonna be the same
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Aerosmith - Crazy. I just love that song.
Anyway. It's a Tuesday, again. You know how dreadful Tuesdays can be? Then again 50% off gelare waffles, at least there is a little good lol. It's irritating because it's the FYP day. Argh. Again, i have no clue what am i supposed to show later on but then again, i did some stuffs to show.. i guess? Well. whatever.
I was out with the mother and the brother (Wei Min and Jason) and analyse our site.. again. I've been site analysing that it kills my feet and not forgetting my brain. I just completed my brief again for the umpteenth times. Which is again kinda irritating. I think my irritatable mood swings will linger awhile until FYP is long forgotten. Eek.
I did side tracked a little today, and went off window shopping with the best friend. It was nice because it had been a while since we hung out together. Killer ass, NUM got new havainas and i want them but not now. Much travellings left me with little blisters to pop out at my tiny toes argh.
Have anyone seen the Motorola L6? Boy. I want that. Santa i've been good ya =) whaha.
It's been a long while since i bought myself something hm. Maybe soon, the christmas sales oughta be out right so yah.
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I conclude that sometimes insects can be quite nice sometimes. I witnessed how ants passed food to one another. It's rather fascinating but it let me looked rather retarded staring at the coarse ground. Such helpful little creatures, until someone just squashed them right smack infront of my bulging eyes. Eek.
-_-" In loving memory. Ah.
I'm gonna continue to do work. K bye.
"...i want a SLK or CLK. gimme one..."
Site Searchin'
I'm getting tired of site searching. I spend a bloodie month searching for a site for my FYP. argh and i guess it took it's toll. I'm going to bed real soon.
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Hm. come to think of it. My wishlist is starting to bore me too. =/
Oh well. then again. You are at my blog anyway, so eat my shit and shut up.
Thank you very much.
It's quite an honourable mention though that people actually read my crap that's on the left of this blog. I thought they were just there to fill up space? =/ Then again, i'm just getting bored with it too. I'll see what i can do with my blog; to spice things up, or maybe create controversies or even the new hq for suicide bombers. Argh. i'll see. Toodles.
"....expo anyone?...."
Insomnia, not
The best friend and the friends.
The sore feet.
The nice chicken rice stall.
The resource center that sucked.
The long walkings.
The disappointed sites.
The nice fried fish noodle.
The National Library.
The best friend again.
The home.
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Ok i'm off to sleep.
"...4ever..."
My Phone
Either is it just me or just that my phone had been a little off lately. My pretty motorola mobile became my possession in August but now, it looks like i've had it for 2 freakin years. So much for taking of it yeah. It's a little off now, which simply defines; weary, silver scraps, scratched screens and yah just plain weird. My volume button is hard to press lately, god knows why. Oh well; i must constrict myself NOT TO BUY A NEW PHONE. The anguish. The agony. Argh.
My pod and my itunes had been blasting pop. Corny pop. The ones that actually makes your skin crawl.
E.g. Aqua - Cartoon Heroes.
Seriously, what got into me, no one can define, even myself. Pop culture is back (temporarily) Argh. I am so tired of school work i think it's even tired of me too. I'm miss my bed so much that fungus is developing on my pillows. Argh.
My god, what a demoralising entry so far.
Today...
Myth: I must wake up at 945 and go consult Keith in school at 1030.
Fact: I woke up at 1045 and consulted Keith at 1pm.
Oh well god knows la hor. Again another demoralising paragraph (wait is it demoralising?)
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AH! I go do work la. Wa lao eh. No life. No life.
"...how bout' some balla baby?..."
