Unearthly Creatures.
I'm worried for my work. Somehow i am. I really do not want to be the i/c of somesort. Because it really traumatises me to a certain extent. I really wished that sooner or later, my responsibility to actually be an i/c or whatever department ends soon. I fear seeing my RSM because he creates nonsensical work for me to do, which is rather stupid and sometimes, a ball carrier of somesort which is only beneficial for him. This is sick, it's a miracle het gets promoted fast.
*rolls eyes*
Jealous? Never, so he drives a car. Compared to the population of Singapore to him, to envy others is much more remarkable than him. Let me see what's pretty wonderful of that hag, oh i know, a brain size of a pinhead. So i fear his anger, u know why? He creates it himself due to his unreasonable traits and actions, because us = problems, him = all about him. Pretty much that says it all.
For a moment i actually find work easy going until he steps in. Please, live me alone, let me do my pretty own damn thing. I don't find comfort in my career no more and it's only in the beginning. Being brought up as the only kid, i swore, being alone and independent is my trait. Not someone breathing down my neck for all the reasons that could be beneficial to him not me. Hmph. Angsty; angsty. Turdy tsk. All these angsty is bad for the mind, such evil corruption. Sin shall not engulf thy.
But without ranting, i swore my life will be a bottle of uncontrollable fits. GRRR. I pity Zaid, who's a guard 2 now doing work for a guard 3. Okie pardon the unidentified terms. Then again, this sucks, people that take granted for others should, PERISH. Ok or let them choke whatever they eating know and let the damn morsel of food blocks the entire air pipe and die from suffocation. DIE DIE DIE.
*evils laughter!*
Ok sin sin sin. TSK. Iskandar stop it! Ok i shall. I'm stuck outside now and i wanna go home. Pretty much stuck in liy's office caused i had to pass her something. Hurhur.
Liy, can we go home now? *yawns*
"...brother i miss you lei..."
Hello People.
I'm trying on the uZap thing again. And it's freaky. My tumy itches and twitches. Grr. But my mum told me to endure it for ten minutes. It's not as orgasmic as i thought it would be but instead, i feel rather squirmy. RAH.
Ok i am sick of being an RP. I pray damn hard, please do not let be the I/C. PLEASE PLEASE. I mean, i'm sick of leading or being part of the leadership saga. I've been at least a part of all my life please not in my NS life too man. Rah. Plus my RSM (which i think i've found a nice term to suit it, -really sick man-) is really sickening, at times. He has this alter ego which really traumatises the whole communion in the camp. I thought it was only in RP's community but not, IT'S THE WHOLE DAMN CAMP!!. Oh well, live through it, live through it izk. Rah.
Ok something out of the blue:
It sometimes require me to think back. All the vivid memories of what i came across in my life. Always puts me in a situation, where that all that i've done not entirely good. The good traits and the bad traits seemed to be on a frequency level that doesn't tally. If it would be on a weighing scale, one would definitely tip it off lower, and without i doubt, the heavier dunk would be the devil in me that obnoxiously created in. Hm. That's really heartbreaking, for once i would have thought, i've done much in my life to actually have it at a point where life is pretty much balanced.
Have i not been nice enough? Have i not been pretty much who i want to be? Well, i guess the mighty dude in the heavens up there should know. Well, heavens. I guess by the time i would reach those pearly gates, it's a full house.
"Heaven's full, hell anyone?"
Painstakingly, outrageous this entry is, but it's a weird twist of self-reflection. It provides me the knowledge of what the life had been brought upon too. Pity me. Pity all. Oh well, regardless such an entry, the feeling that came over me while typing this was literally, zilch. None. I've put my heartless bit in me overcome the self, making the good and the bad, aside.
Being a neutral puts everything at focused. A straight mind that helps to actually i repeat, focus. Oh well, izkandar is all that he is. I can't think of anything to type but this pretty vague entry is pretty much, ruthless and weird. Inevidently, i'm no longer sober. But in a daze, where reality hits life really hard. I repeat, all these is a mere self-reflection that evolves to somewhat of a manifestation. Oh well, manifest it your mind, and toodles to all.
"....christmas charms...."
Really.
This is emo. I really truly am feeling emo.
EMO - emotional melancholic orang. HEH.
MAN. EMO wrecked me. I feeling emo. Listening to emo songs just makes me feel more erm, sober. HAH. Slightly, right now; i want the whole world to be emo with me. But then again, i would rather be emo alone.
I AM BEING VERY EMO.
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Ok this entry is totally random, and right smack doesn't reflect the emo spirit i am now but truly, the sound of annoyance and random rubbish filled the air. Oh well. I am full of rubbish. And right now i am pretty hungry, because breakfast and lunch and dinner was yet to fill my pretty little huge tummy. Oh well. Appetites running low; pretty good. Gotta go. To continue to be a Emo. Bahz.
"...what is that again?"
A Tiny Wish.
Sometimes i do wish for world peace, sometimes i don't.
Sometimes i do wish for everything in the world, sometimes i don't.
Sometimes i do wish that all sweet things are to be sweeter, sometimes i don't.
Sometimes i do wish time would turn back it's time, sometimes i don't.
Sometimes i do wish that my friends would stay with me forever, well i always do
=)
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My christmas wish this year.
A sentimental photo book, of my friends. If this doesn't make me tear; i don't know what does.
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Oh maybe a white christmas. Hoho. Happy wishing, Christmas is technically a month away =)
"...i'm a nice santa this year..."
In The Midst Of.
Well, i decided to do some collages up as promised but then again, my photoshop died on me due to, too much files in my drive. I'm supposed to clear them but i guess it will take a while because i need to sort them out carefully, which technically takes almost a century to do so. So the collages are, well let me phrase it well; halted temporarily. Bahz. In replacement, an entry with nothing more but words. Hardy harhar.
I just did my 24 hours duty yesterday hmm, wait which ended today. Whatever. But yeah, as much as i thought life was stagnant, the duty simply had to rub it in aye. Abhoringly boring, and nothing much but to see life past by as though the world is ticking ain't slow enough. I could have sworn that i could feel that my hair grew a cm. I repeat, 24 hours duty is the epitome of all boredom. Period.
I stayed home today and slept through the day not knowing i killed practically half of the day. RAH. So which what i am gonna do next is to again, fulfil the desires of my bed; to sleep of course. Because who says, i have off tomorrow!?!?! Rah, this is darn irritating.
*rolls eyes*
I'm organising something for Christmas. I think i am, well i hope i am. I have my mom to help me out in this. It's for the closest people (friends) to me. =) Festive festive, pretty much the mistletoes are always my 2nd best favourite festive season. Where in 1st place, which lies in a crisis of either Hari Raya or The Great Singapore SALE. heh
*twirls hair, wait i don't have much hair don't i?"
I've stop spending for quite a while except on travelling the ezlinks and the cab fares. I swear having a camp thrown way far from your abode is pathetically, "great". Long train rides, Long bus rides and even the cab rides are at times horrendously long. Man, i miss my tekong buddies. I really miss them like tonnes. =( Wishing times in tekong was in occurence now. RAH. Being a private sucks, though going to be lance corporal ain't gonna be any better too.
For once i thought, going to the detention barracks would something i would never do in my life, let alone visit but being a regimental police person thingie, i've visited that darn place like a gazellion truckloads of times. Escorting the detainees that is. Nothing much interesting but being a tough end cop, making the detainee erm semi-suffer. Nah! I'm not those mean cops okaye, i pity them somehow. BLEAHZ.
Let me rant about on Christmas. Do you know how muchhhh I LOVE CHRISTMAS?!?!?
24th December - The Parental erm _ _th birthday!!
Plus Christmas knocks the socks out of me. Great shopping, great sales, great people, great moments and great food. WEEE. Holly mistletoe! Rah, enough of the rants of christmas, i shall retire to bed now, or not. HEH
"...you have stolen my heart..."
Better Than Nothin'
Okay, so i managed to do some collages. Mind you, these collages are only a fraction that happened in the past weeks ok, like a pathetic fraction, but it's better than nothin' yeah. Anyway I'm gonna sleep now, i'm pretty shagged out from work, plus i think i'm gonna get screwed tomorrow shito. Bye!
"..uh oh.."
hmm. more updates later. (cliche cliche lol)
Short
Okie, i've got tonnes to write, and huge amount of photos to put way dated wayyy back since Hari Raya. RAH! I must get it on ready and all for much pleasurable viewings. HURHUR. Okie, i've had a long day and another one tomorrow. So, i shall scurry off to bed now. Nighto.
"...my oh my..."
Square One.
Right now, life is stagnant and mundane. When i go to work daily, i would sit and ponder that i'll be doing this shit for 2 years or so, unless i'll be posted overseas which is likelihood, an 80% guarantee. Well, then again, being posted overseas, serves another mundane and boring purpose. Which equally means, i'll be doing the same thing over again, just in another environment. Relentlessly, i've got another smackin 2 years of glorious fun serving the NS, which is of course "....". Hmph. The mark of turning 21 recently was a blessing in disguise. Well, yeah i think it is, isn't it?
No, i'm not talking about my party, it's rather superficial if i would rant about such marvellous partaye i had and it's a blessing. I mean, that turning 21 was a benchmark of alot of new beginnings. Within a month since the birthday, i discover and array of situations and deeds that made left pretty much satisfied, and of course; happy. =) Oh well, everyday is a blessing to me, is just how we perceive it.
Weekends are uber precious to me. If i don't actually, enjoy the weekends besides lounging at home relaxing i would eventually lead to a life where, erm let me rephrase, i would actually have NO LIFE. Thank god for meet ups and dinners and stuffs. Anyway, i think i shall meet my best friend next week, hmm. I know, life as an army personnel is tough. The only time i see my best friend is by coincidence or a pre arranged meet up that would actually occur wayyyyy before the actual meeting is. I guess an impromptu meet up would serve both of us good. More brotherhood bonding to be achieved, after what NS life had put a distance between the both of us. A distance it is but it was never too far for a brother, for what we both always agreed on. Happy happy.
I've got uber tonnes of photos to put up and a long entry about my exciting events i came across the past month. Oh well, i guess another day. But i did promise a new layout and a much more yummy-ful entry right? So i did. =P Somehow i think i did heh.
Hari Raya still lingers and the visiting never ends until the damn festive month ends. RIGHT now, i'm giving out the greens. Uh huh. boo. I still get them tho' but not much oh well traditions are still traditions and age now MATTERS lol, As the numbers increase, the lesser I RECEIVE. Humpity hmph!
Alright, back to camp in the wee hours of the morning but right now, a well deserve-whatever-hours-is-left sleep. Cheerios mighty people!
"...dark blue dark blue..."
I have been damn busy. I promise more updates and a new blog skin by this weekend =P Cheerios fellow readers.
