The One Without Sleep
I didn't have a good sleep the night before because my oldest cat, Miki, is making hell alot of noise. The meows were endless, literally. The scratchings on my door were damn disturbing. This feline of mine is SERIOUSLY whacked out lately. I hope i'll have a better sleep tonight, if not those major eyebags are here to stay, for good. Tsk.
I was late for work today, and i felt miserable. I really do. But the misery came from the lack of sleep, the rushing arounds, the long journeys and the menacing sore throat. I swear, bad things always comes in a package for me. I wasn't really myself today, as a matter of fact, i felt utterly uncomfortable and restless. Geez, i don't know but it's definitely the lack sleep. You see, as for me; lack of sleep causes huge emotional stirs. Seriously, i will have wild thoughts, perceptions and inquisitions running wild in my mind causing a severe melancholic trauma. But all these, hidden beneath a facade of my normal average looking self. Such smart decoy i might say.
Anyway, after this entry, i'm going to give myself a good rest, well i'll try my best to do so. Earplugs, comfy pillows and comforters are fully prepared for my such needed sleep. I took a nice not warm, but cold BUT not shivering shower. Cold showers seemed to relax the nerve agents in me; my answer to relaxant pills.
Besides, my insomnic-caused-by-my-cats fiasco, i find myself again, phone hunting. Which i think i will settle for the Nokia 6300. It's slim, pretty user friendly, great sound system, a 2megapixel camera and lastly it's cheap. Heh. Alright, if you guys do not what crap i'm blabbering about, view the visual below.
Honestly, this time the eyelids are failing me. Which is a very good sign. I'll sleep like a log tonight. YAY.
"....i like it...."
Yet Another
The whole weather lately had been quite comfortable. It makes my bed, pillow and comforter even more cosy than ever. Somehow, cuddling and curling up under the sheets, my comforter as a matter of fact, is the only notion that happens somewhere between the first hour of my sleep. This is because, i'm quite a hectic and notorious sleeper. I could have been hugging a pillow to sleep, but the next morning; pillows gone, comforter on the floor and bedsheets are all out of their corners. Despite trying very hard to actually not to cause a turmoil when i sleep, the attempt always failed.. miserably.
NOW, i'm complaining. I woke up this morning with my comforters on the floor and my legs totally frozen, cold, stale and motionless. My point is that, now my legs are sore and aching. Not from running or vigorous activities but because my pieces of lard-like-legs are exposed to the cold weather the entire night. So i'm having rheumatism now; i assume. MAN! this age thing is really catching up with me, what's next? Dentures?? I mean i'm only 22 this year, not 222. Even if i could live to such a ripe old age, would it be a torture for then since now is already a killer. OH well, the aching feet, legs, joints, knees.. whatever, are well still.. aching. Hmph.
Alright, that's that.
You know, mummy dearest really pisses me off. She bought me the N76, but i've barely used it or say play it, and she's been using it all the way. The amount of timesi used the damn phone, is pretty countable which is only, twice. I don't see the point of her buying me the phone and uses it for her own use. Oh well, after she bought it; so TECHNICALLY she does have the right to use. Oh just leave the poor old soon using the pathetic military phone. The cameraless, mp3-less, colourless, polyphonic-less phone. I'm trading in my weekend phone, the crappy Nokia 6125 for a better catch. Which i'm not sure what it's gonna be la. But anyway, when pay comes, i'll get a new line since my old one had expired and plus a new phone.
MINE ALL MINE. Hmph.
I'm gonna post up some random but way due photos from my camp's National Education trip somewhere early July which ended up with some major camera whoring at Haji Lane. Let the pictures do the talking now, so goodnight fellow readers.
"....when life's like that...."
Reminiscing
Yesterday, when Shawn asked me to do up his blog; i was more than delighted to do so; i was ecstatic!; alright i seemed exaggerated here. Anyway, point is, i love doing up blogs; call me crazy but then again, i love html-ing. So, i sped my way to do up his blog which i realised, it's been a while since i html-ed. The look i gave my pc monitor was priceless. Even the basic notions of html was, alright i admit... forgotten! So it took me a few hours to do up a simple blog. So with that, i've decided to well, change my blogskin.... WHICH i yesterday screwed up big time. So if you guys were to visit my blog yesterday, the graphics were bad. Really bad. pixels were well simply pixelated. Fonts were just wrong. Basically, my blog was a disaster yesterday. And i left it such agonising pain for others too see while i joyfully watched the fireworks yesterday during the NDP preview. haha. But now, not to fret because all is well. I changed the blogskin again, fondle with my photoshop and gotten my act right. And now, i'm pretty satisfied with the outcome. Woo.
Weekends are good (that includes the great weather nowadays), staying home during the weekends are good, i wish. heh. Well, it went by a little too fast. Let's welcome another dreadful work week tomorrow with full of anxiety people! yay. -_-"
I can't fluently blog as i used to during school days. Where updates of my ever so crazy daily life was such a chore at times and that it kills me if i don't tell the world about it. But now, the monotonous life i lead is even a bigger chore than i was then. Not only does it make my life mundane, predictable and all the things bad but in a more appropriate way; my life currently cease to suck except for weekends. But then again, the weekends are now a cycle. Where i jump for joy on Friday nights, party hard, sleep in during Saturdays which later is being followed with more towning, clubbing or whatsoever which ends up another sleep in on Sundays with the whole day feeling sucky and all because the Monday Blues kicked in even before Sunday ended.
Haiz. Then again, age is catching up too. Now when i club, it takes me 2-3 hours and my legs are all wobbly and weak. TSK. This is very degrading.
Man, this sucks. Somehow; i wished i was back in school. Where life was nothing more but homework or assignments. Oh man, this is such a depressing end of week entry.
*crap, my itunes just had to blast time of your life by greenday now aye*
I'm trying to find ways to lift up my spirit at this very hour but nothing seemed to help. When i look up, i gazed upon a poster of my poly mates. Which made me whimper in my chair reminiscing the good old times. Where life only rotates around the canteen food, where sardine curry puffs were such a delight and model making was the death of all of us. When i look to my left, a pictorial of myself graduating from my secondary school, where life was nothing but the big O's. Where science was my foe and humanities were my friends. Where school starts at 7 and ends at 2. Not forgetting, the dirty old pranks we played on everyone, which includes teachers. I seriously would give up now for anything to turn back time.
But one thing; made my life in army ever so sweet are the friends i make in there. Life in my unit would be a bore without these crazy people, to the regimental police team; which is made known by everyone; the serious RP's that goes crazy when a fun tune is being blasted on the radio. To the HQ people; man thank god you guys are one crazy bunch as well =) Well, now i think i managed to find a spark to lift my spirits. At least, i'll have a smile tonight
"....it's another day tomorrow...."
I SCREWED UP MY BLOG DESIGN. BUT I'M OFF NOW FOR NDP.
Yeah! i've just received my battalion's dinner photo of my performance. A very happy but sleepy me now. I've just send Shawn those batch of photos, and it's killing my computer with all the crazy lagging and hanging. I swear, my comp is having one hell of a moodswing tonight. I switched on my computer at 850pm and by 1015pm it began to start running; windows that is. RAH.
I'm hitting the sack now. Nights!
"...it's been a while...."
Boredom
Honestly, i'm leading myself to such a mundane life without a doubt. Like seriously, i sat and stared at my half-fucked computer and let the darkness of my pc's wallpaper get to me. I mean seriously, even the motonousity of the wallpaper portrays the boredom in me. Realization, my wallpaper is rather dumb as a matter of fact. Why does one need to be reminded of one's name and interest, the moment the pc is on? Bahz, my life is killing me, if that doesn't, i'll just let the void in me eat me up from the inside; leaving unworthy bones of structure. Haiz.
My wallpaper.Inevitable Nights
My eyes gazed around my dark room. As it wanders around, the empty mind became occupied of sorts and thoughts. It's 1 in the morning but yet my eyelids are still not giving in despite the cold comfortable weather. I've been coughing for 2 days in a row now, but the depressing thing ever is that; it's those kinds of cough that is rather and relatively dry causing such agonising pain in the chest every moment i quack away those bacteria. It's phlegmless, how i wish it wasn't. Grr.
Yet again, notoriously, the z's decided not to kick in now. I wish they would because i know i'm left with only 5 hours of comfortable snores. Ah anyway, the itunes are blasting Muse now, since i can't sleep; well Muse.. apparently not the right kind of lullaby ain't it? heh. Well, this is rather old school, but my perfect remedy for a goodnight sleep is definitely a blog entry, before hitting the sack. Ah, such old school moments.
I clearly remember, back during my polytechnic days; i would stay up untill dawn to hurry off my work/projects or whatsoever. Now, to get myself tucked in bed early is still a mighty problem for me. Rah. Come to think of it; school days had been 365 days ago. DAMN it, but yet the body clock decided to stay put as it is, and no military camp changed it someway somehow. Argh.
Pardon such non-sensical and aimless entries.
I tried to probe into life's much un-answered questions, but then again the probing failed because i guess the intellectual self decided not show up at this hour. Dang. Hmm, i performed on Friday, and i was a nervous wreck! Considering; the last time i performed in front of a large scale audience was exactly a year ago, not including weddings and other stuffs yeah where stages weren't that high and overpowering muahaha. Shawn told me, the vocalist should be the one with the most confidence and all.
True. Very true.
But then again, after a year not performing; i had butterflies in my tummy. I used to host events, but it's been awhile since army began, i used to lead people in cheering... then again i think i grew out of it. I sang alot then and participated in competitions frequently; but all these occurred way before the whole monotonous army life began.
See, point proven. The military does affect my spontaneity in performing. Friday proves, how much i missed and loved being on stage. My my, i hope this trait in me doesn't run out, ever. Hah.
It's 1.20am and i only have a few hours of sleep left. Alot still lingers in my mind but i won't belt it out in my blog tonight. Maybe for another day, another entry. Though i sense, a very sensible entry might be on its way soon. Well, another day in my boring army phase is to be greeted. Goodnight all.
"....a night's event...."
The Anniversary Dinner
I woke up today with a high temperature, a throbbing headache, a running nose and a menacing sore throat (that includes a pain in the ass ulcer in my throat). Now tell me, what a way to greet a comfortable cold and rainy Saturday aye? I drag my comatose self out of bed to wash up and swallow some pills or sorts. Anyway, yesterday was my battalion's anniversary dinner held at the ever so huge, Singapore Expo. It was rather rowdy, but it was okaye, grand but still; it was okaye.
I found band mates in camp; like i mentioned in the earlier entry. Shawn, Rozmail, Suhaimi and Jainthan with me as the vocalist. Hey, we're rather cool, with each and everyone of us who actually has experience performing. Tentatively; by right there were auditions for our Battalion's Anniversary Dinner Idol, but somehow it was scrapped and representatives from each company performed yesterday.
Well, we didn't had much practice for the gig but we gave our best yesterday and yeah i've got confidence in the band anyway which ended up we came in forth =D. Well, i think we're quite happy about it considering we only have how much jamming sessions the past few days, we enjoyed ourselves performing as though it was another jamming session.
Rozmail - On Drums, you mighty swell drummer you.
Shawn - On Lead, Bro, you have one hell of a talent, plus thats one fine guitar yah! Jainthan - On Bass, hah! Another hidden talent, a definite diamond in the rough
Suhaimi - On Rhythm, I never knew you could play so well?!
Well, we should jam more often man! heh.
The dinner, was a typical course by course served dinner. With raunchy performances by 4 ladies, who actually dance on stage looking all sleazy and stuff. Okaye, i'm kinda stumped with their performance. There wasn't any synchronized dancing or what so ever but only 4 skanky dressed girl's flaunting their assets, on stage jiggling their almost bare butts in tiny micro short skirts with boobs revealing tops and lastly bad raunchy dancing. So i just don't get their performance. Oh well, it definitely made most of the boys go ga-ga over them.
The magic show was entertaining but still cliche; but hey you will definitely get amazed by live magic shows no matter what heh. The lydia sum skit thingie was horrendously funny at times. HEH. But the idol competition sorta rocked. Honestly, we didn't manage to have any sound check earlier and my band was the first one to perform. The microphone went crazy on me, because i cannot even hear myself singing the first song. Oh by the way, i sang It's not over by Daughtry and Muse's, Time is running Out. But everything seemed to went well for the Muse's song. I managed to hit certain notes and as for the Daughtry song; i can't hear myself if i ever hit the notes or not haha. But it was fun. =D
I sorta expected the top 3 winners though, the dancing, the beatboxing and the other acoustic band who sang five for fighting. Hey, that kinda rocked, my band got forth!
Well, i'll get the photos soon and i'll try to post it up yeah. I'm gonna hit the sack now. Damn fever.
P.S. Almost 3/4 of my bandmates are back in camp now for duty. Man, that suck. besides that, quedoes to you guys man. You guys rock.
"....performances....."
I'm Updating My Blog For Crying Out Loud!
The major reason of the lack of updates is because of the cranky pc. SERIOUSLY. It hangs, it auto-shutdowns, it lags, it does everything that it does not supposed to do so. I swear, even the typewriter would be off a better aid in typing this entry. Say currently, i'm typing like 30 words a min, with such condition of my poor pc now. Ain't that fast?!
*sniggers*
This whole week will be jammed packed. Considering, I have IPPT tomorrow morning, Chemical defence training on Wednesday and Thursday and my battalion's anniversary day cum games day cum dinner aka "prom wannabes" with no babes except the old haggard looking ones. No offence. Heh. And guess where it's gonna be held, The god damn Singapore EXPO. Blessed my mothing fuckin bitch, if it's in a hall, i swear our commotion would seriously beat the crowds of the next Metro sale there. I mean, the hall is god damn blardie huge, like literally. If it's held at the restaurant there it would be much off a better location. Well, we'll see but then again, who holds their dinner, anniversary dinner to be exact at THE GOODDAMN SINGAPORE EXPO. Oh, only the SAF do such things. Bahz*
Anyway, i'll be crooning my not so perfect voice that night, with the aid of my band. HEH. I repeat; My Band. (i've always wanted to say that some how!) Well, not really my very own band/gig/people or whatever, a group of us made up of Shawn, Suhaimi, Rozmail, etc with me as the singer.
*i can hear laughter; so shut up -.-*
Till then, it'll be a god damn busy week which not forgetting that includes working week too aye? Heh. Work is fine, the Bacin's (my own group regimental police) are rawking. Mighty rawkin' more bitchin' and gossipin' about them in the near future. Maybe until the computer is really up and running as healthy as a pig (don't ask me why i chose a pig for this simile).
Talking about running, i have to run tomorrow. RUNNING, the act of using my tubby tub of lard of legs to move vigorously and swiftly that gives out gigantic and monstrous not forgetting thundrous motions. That scares the living daylights of those nicely tarred road or insect that crawls on them, screaming for mercy. Oh well, all the best to me.
"...my sacrifice..."
Hello All.
Okaye, i kinda miss this. Typing an entry that is. Well, you can say i just came back from hiatus, or not but the whole disappearance was due to the failure of my own pc and plus i'm caught with everything else in the world, besides having a personal social life. How incredible is that?
Nope the PC is alive and kicking but not for very long. It lags, it shuts down by itself and it hangs most of the time, prompting me to insert the 2nd Disc of the XP cd, which i don't even have it now. The CD was from the brother, but well yeah good news.. he sorta misplaced it or he accidentally ate it by mistake. I want to change my PC, but i'll until i move out end of this year. Hey, moving into a new apartment, means having majority of the household items spanking new, which includes a new PC.
Anyone, life is at is now. Crazy. Hey do catch the parade this year aye? HEH. That was rather random somehow. Right now, i have an ulcer somewhere between the joint of your upper lip before it meets the gum. There is this piece of flesh somewhere there that somehome connects your lip to your, i repeat, gums. I have an ulcer there. I don't if my description of where it is is pretty much helpful, okaye one more description; you have to lift up your upper lip to actually see a good sight of that particular flesh, well with an aid of a mirror that is. ANYWAY, yes, i have an ulcer there, a terrible one. RAH. It hurts, but it doesn't affect the voice, food consumption or whatsoever, so THANK GOD. =D
Okaye i just applied bonjela, and gonan head off to bed now. Erm, till then bye.
"...hold your breath for ndp 07...."
NDP NDP NDP NDP.
I AM BACK!
then again, i'll blog more soon la. Off to bed.
