Deep Down
I've got a running nose and a bad throat. All the perks of having heaty food during my vacation. I am not blogging about the trip because right now, emotional mood swings are kicking in. Or shall i say, self thoughts and ponderings. I was reading through my blog archives, some of my friend's archives. It evokes some kind of feeling in me. Neither good, neither bad. Having James Blunt blasting through my speakers is not helping.
Honestly speaking, i think i've changed. I know i'm more mature now but somehow or rather, i miss who i was back then. I miss who i was with back then. As days goes by, things doesn't stay same, they evolve; we evolve. We found new friends, we venture into new things. It makes us who we are now.
Nadi, i miss our dinner parties we had back in Loyang Valley way back then. Somehow or rather, i miss being the pirate that i was then sending you songs and such during our late night msn chats. There's something missing now somehow =(
I miss student Jason. Current Jason is nothing more but a dull dut, "excitingly" busy being a grown man. Where his youth can all be forgotten now. I don't know whether is now a good thing.
I can name alot more but right now my mind is in a whirl.
I don't know there's something missing in this entry.
I realised, i've not found the right one. The right friends? The right best friend? I REALLY DON'T KNOW. I really don't know what to write in this entry. For all i know right now is that, i feel like crap and i miss everything that was before.
I seriously feel like shit.
Where are all the good ol' times? Honestly, i miss spending time with everyone i met during my tertiary years. I've lost myself somewhere that it is so hard to find my way out. I think this is going to be a new beginning.
I really think so.
"...soul searching..."
Alex, Adam or Alexandra?
I've been trying to learn French for the fun of it just in case if i ever land myself in France. Which i hope i will in the near future. Anyhoo, i've decided to change my name to maybe Alex. Why so? It's easier to pronounce Alex than Iskandar in French. As sexy and complicating the language is, can u imagine if i were to introduce myself, je ma'appelle iskandar.
The French would just stickout their tongues and slaughter themselves to death.
As though speaking their native language isn't tough enough, here comes another mouthful that might sound a tad vulgar to them. With my constant persuasion on correcting the pronounciation of my name, je ma'apelle IS-KAN-DAR, IS-CANT-DARR. I'd rather change my name to Alex which is somewhat familiar to the French and it is pretty easy with the French tongues. You can't go wrong with Alex, like seriously.
Hmm. Or maybe Adam, yeah Adam sounds sexy. Je ma'apelle Adam. Ooo i like that.
Initially i wanted Alexandra but i realised it's a girl's name but then again, it is a name used for both sexes, right?. I didn't want Alexander because it doesn't have the really thick roll of pronouncing the letter "R", because it ends with R. How much rolling can you do when your name ends with R? Alexandrrrrrr(growl)raa. Think Kate Beckinsale in Van Helsing, well that's not even a French movie. Heh. At least it puts the language of love to much good use and Alexandra is the closest to Iskandar right?
No no no. I'll stick to Adam because i like the name Adam. So ladies and gentlemen,
Je ma'apelle Adam.
P.S. More updates of my vacation soon
"...random nonsense..."
Awake with a Headache
I never like headaches. It makes my left eye twitch which makes think something bad is going to happen. Not that i believe any of that sort, but i guess i've been watching too much television. Honestly, that belief sometimes ridicules me. Anyway as i was saying, i hate headaches and i'm having one now. It makes my vision altered to one side, making me feel loop headed because everything i look seems to slant to an angle no matter how perpendicular i am to the ground. How frustrating is that?
I gulp down those good ol' panadol pills but nothing seemed to kick in. Oh well, then again they say, try taking a nap.. or at this hour.. SLEEP. But i can't, the ache pounds, throbs and thinks that my head is under going some kind of renovation. Hmph.
Oh yeah, i'm going Batam this weekend, this lovely long weekend. A little hiatus i say. Now i can't wait for that! All along with Nadi, Din, Zark, Sofi, Mona and Faz. Woo.
I'm so psyched that i'm meeting up with these people, that i guess that is the cause of my headache. Oh well, i'll comfort myself an acknowledge this headache as pain of joy. Good morning to one and all.
"...batam batam..."
I've procrastinated long enough, here are the summary of my 2008.
So January came along with full of anxiety for me. Afterall, it seems as though i've been waiting for 2008 for the longest time ever. Well, January has always been a rather slow one for me, as always. God knows why. Somehow, the entrance to the new year was a dreadful and long one. I couldn't think of any important factors except for the fact that i signed up for my first ever credit card. Well, hurray to me and pretty much that's all for January. How eggciting.
Of course, who could forget February especially for those who went through military life during that period. The famous escapade that our fellow terrorist did. Which obviously causes much "joy and happiness" in our lives. I remembered clearly, the crazy duties i went through back then in camp to ensure the security was tight, no loopholes, yada yada yada. Seriously, it bores the shit out of me then, and apparently now still. Well, it was the highlight for Fabolous February that's for sure. Hmph.
My first ever presidential award show. Camera, fame, glamour and DAMN GOOD food was the highlight for the night. A victorious one i might add. It was March's highest peak for me. I never knew award shows were this exciting. AW MAN. I want to experience it once more!
AH YES. I've decided to change my blog address. I think it's a pretty huge step since i've been using www.oneminuteman.blogspot.com for almost 4 years then. Since i've labelled myself, a step towards the industry so why not have a blog, that promotes my branding. Hello the newer but old izk-ed. Woohoo.
OKAY i think everyone sorta knew i'm a Cook fan. A HUGE ONE at heart and literally in size hur. So yeah, when he won the competition, i screamed for joy to my utmost exhilaration. His debut album well, it's mainstream rock. Mentionable, but i guess he sure can do better but his 2nd single, 'Light On' are on the top of the charts now. Well, it's Cook; i'm not surprised. Haha. 6 months since he won the title and i'm still ranting about him. Hell yeah.
HOW CAN I FORGET JUNE! It marks the end of my military life. It has been 2 long years and i've never waited for something this long. The anticipation, anxiety, all good things comes in June. Enough said, i became a civilian once more. A huge transition in life, 6 months of army splits the year. Memories and experiences gained and learnt.
My first design job at a reputable club, not only locally known but internationally acclaimed as well. It was tough for me though to handle things especially after jumping from a different phase earlier in my life. I went through financial issues, stability, frequency and everything else but honestly, i gained much during my stay there and there has been no regrets. :)
My first event that received good reviews from everywhere and everyone that i know off. Now now, one can br proud of one's work right? =)
Alright the first part of September goes to the new home! Another wait finally arrived. Well, i had my constant eye and touches for my new place from scratch and finally, i've settled down now happily in my new abode. Now, this is a place i call home.
The next part of September was when Wei Min left the country for big ol' London for studies. AIYO i miss her to the core la. No words could describe it. Well, like they say there's always happiness and sadness in life and in September it comes in a package.
Sigh. I do not where to start for this. I sound like a broken record. I still miss them. Truth be told, i don't think i've ever said anything hypocritical about their characters behind their backs except for voicing out my thoughts and opinions towards them. Well, for certain i know i've been bitched, but thank god i don't take things to the heart. Oh well, someone has to be the bad guy. Let it be me, i wouldn't mind be it my mistake or not.
You loose some, you gain some and for me i've found new love and joy with these people. I swear, after hanging out during raya and stuff, I LOVE THIS PEOPLE. Retarded, intelligent, well spoken, hillarious human beings. I can never get enough of them. They can put a smile on my face anytime, so i am really thankful for that. More hangouts and trips yeah? =)
Again, another month that has two highlights. December, well still fresh in our minds yeah. My christmas party made a come back, bigger and better that year. With a black, white, pink and of course a glamorous theme, the party was a success with great friends, food and lastly.. what's christmas if there's no gifts right? It was good stuff.
As for the part two of December, unfortunately my dear cat that i ever loved and cared so much gave his final meow. I was devastated la, but no one knew how sad i was i guess. Until now, i still miss cuddling that little fella. Well it was a good decade with him. At least i've got 2 more left, healthy and fit but not forgetting missing their brother that passed away last year.
SO there goes my 2008 summary. Well, hmm. All i can say 2008 was an eventful year. I spent half of the year under the nation's captive and another half, free and wild. I went through alot that made me learn and realise the wonders of life. I've let things be as they are, looking back i'm not sure have i done the right thing still but obviously there are no regrets. I take things to my own stride. I didn't put a year of my life to waste, but every year is a new discovery for myself. God had gave me an equal share or joy and sadness. I put a smile on my face and thank everyone, everything and god for making who i am now. Stronger, hopefully better than ever. We've greeted 2009, so far life has been good. I'm sticking to my resolution this year. Well, there might changes big or small but for the better i hope. But like i said earlier, i'm thankful for everything especially for anyone that stepped and left my life.
BY THE WAY, here are random photos for January 2009. Parties and a new phone from mummy. HOHOH. Well, i didn't want a complicated phone. My life is complicated enough haha. Even though it's an old model but i like its simplicity and design. Anyway, GOOD MORNING EARTHLINGS!
"...i come in peace..."
Sometimes i blame myself for having too much friends.
How do you choose or decide, from your friends or your friends.
Everyone in the world can surprise you, not matter how close they are.
I know battle of the Davids are so 2008, but i just caught this clip on Ellen and it was effing hillarious. Okok, i promise a proper entry soon alright. Good morning to all =)
*decides to continue after an hour of not sleeping*
It's been like 4 months since i moved to my new place, and truth be told; its relatively problematic. Cracking walls, plaster falling off and lastly new buildings are not the medium to soften the surrounding noise; when i meant surrounding noise - NEIGHBOURS. The trains and traffic were okaye, well actually they're non-existence sometimes. You think that i'm kidding? Not at all! Their honks and railway gushes does not even penetrate through my windows, surprisingly.
I've got a huge crack on my wall, god knows why. Called the HDB and got it fixed but somehow or rather, the plaster didn't create a nice finish SO the existing paint that i had for my walls gave a weird glossy finish in comparison to my other walls. So i've decided to cover up with wall covering, well to create a feature wall across the hallway. Which thank goodness, it doesn't cause a bomb.
Next up, the plaster in my room fell off, again god knows why - so called up my contractor, had it plastered and i've yet to paint over with my moss green paint. Hmm but that situation is solved. The one that is rather irritating are slamming of doors, the drilling, and the running/stamping from the neighbours above, below, i don't even know where does the freaking noise even comes from. It's bugging the shit out of me; damn this permeable walls. Other than that, everything is fine. HAH.
I've decided to stay away from all the Gaza saga, it hurts so bad to hear anything about it. So please, do not flood me with all these petition and support groups; i've signed up enough and the more i hear or receive something about it; i feel like there is really no end to such misery and gore. This hurts me even more.. Sigh. You can call heartless, but seriously if i were to voice out my thoughts here, i'll just be like one of those million others who voice out their opinions, online. I've done my part(i hope), i feel their pain, if only i'm god - than for now nothing much makes a difference. As selfish as it sounds, ignorance is bliss but seriously in my case silence is golden. A prayer, a silent prayer from the heart is what i have to offer because sometimes giving your best is good enough.
Where is that conclusive 2008 entry??
Well honestly, it's on its way. Photoshopping some photos and such because for now, 2008 is the highlight of my life. Where a transition between two lifestyles took place and there's much to say about it! Hmm. The recession lately are affecting alot of companies, inclusive of mine. So i've got my back up for now clinching as much freelance deals that i can get; or maybe a change of a job that is stable enough to support my needs, in this time of the year. God knows, everything lies in the hands of the mighty one. We shall see how 2009 progresses and what it has for me. I hope for the best, but i can't deter myself from the downs, it's the part and parcel of life. You gotta put with a little storm before the rainbow right? Alright, as that's that, i shall end this entry; GOOD MORNING!
"...hmmm..."
January Merepek.
Good morning. I've been a television junkie lately, especially for late night shows. Name me the channel, i've watched them all. Being the couch potato that i already am, glue-ing my face to the no longer black box (let's all rejoice for PLASMAS!); is seriously, not good. Not good at all. I think my sofa has already mold the shape of my huge ass and that's not entirely pleasant. To make it sound worse, i've been doing so since last year (then again, last year was just a few days ago). Anyway, besides the good ol' television, mobtv also dominated my pc. I'm a drama junkie, i watched almost all of the chinese serial dramas of channel eight, twice. I watched special variety shows that i missed such as the Marina Bay Countdown, which i regret watching.
The Countdown was horrible to the extreme, that even my cats are cringing by just watching it. Never put Singaporean artistes with pop songs together; not only are they painful to watch but my god.. what have i done to deserve this to my hearing. You have Fiona Xie, Michelle Chia and Andrea Fonseka belting out Don't Stop The Music but honestly we all are screaming our lungs out just for the music to stop. It was one horror variety show, not worth watching. The countdown itself was screwed up; the timings didn't tally which made me burst out laughing when the fireworks came out before Gurmit completed his countdown. Well, that was one boo-boo worth watching la i guess, haha.
ANYWAY, Little Nyonya had finally ended. But not to worry; thank god for the wonders of Mobtv. Hurhur. Besides that, i'm addicted to the Killers, Day & Age album. Besides their hit track Humans, Spaceman will create wonders as well. Woot. Alright I'm off to sleep now, but here's a little promo for the Killers album. Goo'night!
"...oh oh oh..."
Diarrhoea
I initially wanted to have my conclusive 08 entry, but it's okay, that will wait. Anyway, i had the worst Friday/Saturday nights in my life. All i did was to eat a plate of sambal beef that my mum cooked and that made me rushing for the toilet at least 9 times that night, not inclusive the puking moments.
For certain i am sure that it was the plate of beef i ate. I was thinking, was my mother trying to kill me or something? Did she cooked it wrong? I AM VERY sure it was the beef that went sliding down my throat. Why am i sure it was that particular beef dish?
(1)For the entire day, i ate only a packet of chicken rice. A harmless packet that resulted to zero toilet visits and many happy moments.
(2)My next meal was the beef dish, it doesn't take long for the pain to take place because i remember vividly that within after 15mins completing my meal; the butterflies in my tummy were replaced by bigger winged creatures. I swear it was one hell of a ride in there.
I can hear my tummy churn all kinds of melody, never once it sounded good. You know how when you shake a bottle of carbonated drink and when you try opening it a huge thrust of liquid kept spewing out and you immediately tightened the cap before any catastrophe breaks wild. Well, that's exactly how i felt that day. Every burps are followed by a memorable puking moment. Every farts is equivalent to watery stools. Did i spoil your mood now?
This lasted the whole night and i was exhausted to the bone. My back began to hurt, and i swore a tiny fever broke out. It lasted until 9am. I asked my mommaye if she had any intentions to murder me or something. She insisted that her cooking was okay and she assured me that my agonising and menacing night got nothing to do with her dish. I asked her, "ARE YOU REALLY SURE? DID U EVEN EAT IT?" And she replied with a simple, no. Instead, she decided to blame me.
She blamed me for drinking too much water. She blamed me for having a late night. She blamed me for a meal i ate 3 days ago. Which obviously none of these accusations are even related to the diarrhoea i had. Why do mothers thinks that they are always right? Tsk. I was not only pissed with my tummy but with my mom as well. For once, can she realise her mistakes, takes the blame and not push it all to me? In this situation (well this is not the only situation before), i am clearly not at fault; infact I AM THE VICTIM HERE.
Ah you know mothers, you tell her it's not your fault, she thinks you're fighting back. You don't eat her dish, she gets pissed and all, AND when you eat her cooking; she still gets pissed at times. WHY? WHY? WHY? It's the same situation; you say something, you get a mouthful. You don't say something. you still get a mouthful. Can someone tell me what kind of law is this?
Anyway, i managed to get some eye shut at practically 10am in the morning causing me to be late for a truckload of stuff later that day. Argh. I felt miserable the entire day that going around to places that i'm supposed too just kills me. Cancelled a couple of plans and stuff. There goes another eventful Saturday, unplanned. Aww man.
"...pain lor..."
1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Write down the phrase you hear
IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
[KINGS OF LEON - USE SOMEBODY]
you know that i can use somebody, someone like you. (...)
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
[HOWIE DAY - COLLIDE (SHAWN'S COVER]
i'm quiet you know, you make a first impression (seriously??)
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
[DISHWALLA - SOMEWHERE IN THE MIDDLE]
you had this look that of an angel, it was such a bad disguise
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
[KINGS OF LEON - RAGOO]
and I'll be alright as long as I ain't seen as all, and I'm holding tight to that night we had a ball
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
[PAPA ROACH - SCARS]
And our scars remind us that the past is real, I tear my heart open just to feel
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
[NATHAN HARTONO - LIFE IS GOOD]
I’ll be there to help you start believe in love again ,
tell me that you’re waiting;
waiting for that happiness
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
[THE FLAMING LIPS - THE YEAH YEAH SONG]
If you could watch everybody work while you just lay on your back,
Would you do it? Um-hum (Yeah yeah yeah yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah)
If you could take all the love without giving any back,
Would you do it? (Yeah yeah yeah yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah)
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
[LIFEHOUSE - WHERE I WANT TO BE]
cause i want nothing more than to sit
outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
is where i want to be yeah
(pretty much i'm still thinking where i want to be tho...)
WHAT IS 2+2?
[DAVID COOK - ALL I REALLY NEED IS YOU]
Just say what you want to say
You don't have a chance in the world
(gosh...i've just doubted my mathematics skills)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
[KANYE WEST - STRONGER]
Work it harder, Make it better, Do it faster, Makes us stronger,
More than ever hour after hour work is never over
(ah.. always making the bond stronger than ever, how apt)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
[PLAIN WHITE T'S - 1, 2, 3 ,4 I LOVE YOU]
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Best I that I've had,
I'm so glad I found you, I love bein' around you.
You make it easy, it's easy as 1,2- 1,2,3,4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do- (I love you)
I love you.
(I love you) I love you.
(OMG IT'S SO TACKY that it's true....................)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
[RADIOHEAD - OPTIMISTIC]
The best you can is good enough
(wow.)
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
[ALICIA KEYS - UNBREAKABLE] (AHAHA)
I'm say'n this love is unbreakable, we living our dreams
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
[CRAIG DAVID - UNBELIEVABLE]
But you came and you changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before
(a little dramatic, but okay la SEMI true)
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
[SEAL - AMAZING]
Cause I know that you’re real, amazing, amazing, amazing
(this is the most egoistical statement in my life ever. trust me; i'm no where near perfection)
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
[THE TINGS TINGS - SHUT UP AND LET ME GO]
I ain’t freakin’, I ain’t fakin’ this; Shut up and let me go
(MAHAHAHAHAHAH THIS IS HILLARIOUS!)
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
[BODY ROCKERS - I LIKE THE WAY YOU MOVE]
I like the way you, love to dance; I like the way you, put your hands up in the air
(hahaha quite ironic)
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
[CRAIG DAVID - LET'S DANCE(HOTSTUFF)
Get on the floor, No need to hold back
Sexy thong, mini-skirt, stilletos
And shakin' all that
(trash talk and shit; trust me people i am no pervert or pimp)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
[ALICIA KEYS - NO ONE]
you will always be around,this i know for certain
(ok la, i love my friends alright)
WHAT´S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
[STONES SOUR - THROUGH THE GLASS]
Forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
[FIGHTSTAR - UNFAMILIAR CEILINGS]
Stay awake with me, It's getting light outside
(yes sleepless nights..)
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
[USHER FEAT. WILL. I AM - WHAT'S YOUR NAME]
damn your double deed, is making willie mumble (yo),jilie jolies im a rock ya like we get down
(hahaha yeah weird ass lyrics like these makes me laugh)
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
[COLLECTIVE SOUL - THE WORLD I KNOW]
Are we listening; to hymns of offering?
Have we eyes to see; that love is gathering?
(this is one great track, trust me.)
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
[BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN - SECRET GARDEN]
She'll lead you down a path; There'll be tenderness in the air
(seems like it...)
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
[THE POSTAL SERVICE - SUCH GREAT HEIGHTS]
they will see us waving from such great heights,"come down now" they'll say.
(how apt; cause i'm scared of heights)
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
[JAMES BLUNT - TEARS AND RAIN]
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain.(sigh)
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
[GREEN DAY - GIVE ME NOVOCAINE]
Take away the sensation inside, bittersweet migraine in my head.
WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
[PEARL JAM - LAST KISS]
We were out on a date in my daddy's car, we hadn't driven very far.
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
[PLAIN WHITE T'S - LET ME TAKE YOU THERE]
I know a place where we can hide out and turn our hearts inside out;They won't know who we are
(Err. okaye!)
Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009!
Supposedly, there's a 2009 sleepover at Grand Mercure but it didn't happened because of certain unforeseen reasons. Apologies for that (no worries Batam still carries on!) BUT 2009 was greeted with amazing fireworks, a scrumptous dinner, splendid coffee, selfish non-local crowds, great company and hillarious photo moments. Here's a pat for 2008 and let's usher in the New Year with full of joy and happiness. Seriously, 2008 went by within the blink of an eye. Yes yes, hello to being a ripe old age of 24, hello to more overseas trip, hello to even more crazy responsibilities, hello to a wider social life, hello to my degree certificate and the list goes on. So that's that, Happy New Year Everyone and God bless to all!
"...auld lang syne, its 2009!..."
