These set of photos are totally way due la. But i'll still post it up. Ah just some photos i grabbed around while blog hopping or those that just sent me and stuff. RAH. Man i really miss school alot aye. If i could really have one wish, is to turn back the hands of time and let me recall to what exact date shall it be? 2nd July 2003 to be precise, that's when my orientation for my poly phase of life begins. I would really love to have the moments relived again until today; both the good and the bad. It's the jizz in life; wanting to go through the wonder years of life again but like they say good things only happen once. =)
Considering that being a design student changed me utterly. And it's a good change for me because it affects me physically and mentally. It generates my mind and my attitude positively which puts me ahead when i do things with a great smile on my face including the heart. Regardless the shitty times i went through, i've learnt from it enough to actually developed from it and make it as a learning point. Being remorse and all over such negativity is a huge time waster, and what else is there to ponder over; it's totally done!
Ah well, it's human psychology i guess.
The blog has a new change after a long while mind you. Back to basics is simply the theme. Simplicity for now. Since life right now is pretty much simple despite my army life but than again like i said it has the sweet sound of serenity running through it daily. The mind now doesn't occupy itself with endless problems or so but peace runs wild. Quedoes to such blessing. Having such tranquility doesn't come by easy. But what lingers is how much the heart and mind yearns the friends =)
Oh well don't we all?
With much love, i shall tuck into bed.
"...i've got peace like a river in my soul.."
Mr Cough-a-lot
After looking through my entries, i just realised; my damn cough still doesn't end. Talking about prolong coughing man geez. Anyway, i've been a recruit for 7 weeks now and so far NS had been fun, so far that is. It's all the singing, pranks, jokes and stuffs. It's like another orientation but a major military scale. Since field camp is over, there's a few more hurdles to go through before i end my BMT. Field camp, i might say, is uber interesting. It's a for everything from powder bathes to even wild boar attacks. Rah, living in the wild, what more can you ask for right?
Ah drinking warm tea now. The heat oozes the sore throat and eases the cough, such comfort. Moments like this, when pain indulges the throat, any soft form of hot liquid or any morsel of edible delectable is rather orgasmic to the damn irrtating throat. Here i gulp down another sip.
*ahhh...*
Hmm, i've lost major weight. And yes i'm bragging duh! A big tub of lard like me wishes those pounds of lard hanging around my body would just disappear so having major weight being lost is something for me TO BE PROUD ABOUT OKAYE. Come bite me. Rah. Dum di dum, life doesn't gets any better when you shed some pounds off. And no no Mr Carl's Junior, you don't see me visiting you anytime soon yah =P (boohoo chilli cheese fries!)
Alright i shall tuck into bed for now. Till the NS ends, my sleeping hours will as early as possible. Geez.
"...acting like watermelon..."
period la.
Cough-ed.
I'm coughing my bloodie intestines out. I'm coughing my whole self out. If this cough doesn't stop soon, i'll just cough myself to death. GRR.
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Something personal :-
Sigh. I hate being paranoid about things that goes around in my head. Why do i always focus on the negativity instead of the positivity? I would want the good things in my mind to over rule the entire negativity so i won't think so much. When things like this happen, i get petrified, worried and sad but all of the wrong reasons.
*Smack me in the head*
I want things to be good as they were before not paranoia that runs throughout endlessly.
I want to be satisfied with what i have now. I want to be happy and carefree like whom i was before. I don't know why i'm now reserved, quiet and easily intimidated by things. I used to be openminded. I used to have integrity. Sigh. Though events that happened in the past should be a learning point not something to be scared off.
All these creates distances.
All these creates unwanted negativity.
I wanna talk things out to someone but i know the same answer is that to give it time and let whatever rest and don't think so much about it. If it was easy enough to do so, i could have done it way before. Sigh. Right now, i'm just scared and paranoid with everything.
Goodnight.
"...sigh, coughs, sigh...."
Was at the World Cup Fans Showdown at Momo last night for awhile to support a dear friend in the pageant and she won! Whee. Oh well. I was alone last night kinda sucky right? Told you i was feeling really down and i'm still am.
I'm down because of the obvious reasons not only in camp but in everything else. I don't know if it's ever right to think of some reason but i tend to get paranoid now. I shan't mentioned on the net for now because it is still raw and uncertain but i'm really scared that things might head of to anoter change.
Do people really put aside their old friends because they find new and better ones?
Geez, god knows. I hope its just a statement. I wouldn't want to justify it but i know some are the exact replicas of the statement but i hadn't gone through it myself YET (and prays hard it will never).
Moodswings alert. I'm really not in the mood for anything. Bummer.
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-randomness -
1.ONE WISH?
To have more wishes.
2.ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?
Definitely both.
3.WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Loosing someone.
4.AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC
Lego love!
5.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY"?
Pain in the ass.
6.DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
Yeap.
7.WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?
I guess.
8.ARE YOU HAPPY?
Now? not really.
9.WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?
White.
10.DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
Yeah.
11.ANY DARK SECRETS?
Definitely.
12.WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?
Anywhere as long the people that went with me are my best friend and my friends.
13.LIKE CLUBBING?
A huge NOD.
14.IS JAY LENO FUNNY?
Eh?
15.CAN YOU SWIM?
Uh huh
16.EVER DONE ILLEGAL THINGS?
Hardy har har, of course.
17.HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTRE OF A LOLLIPOP?
Geez. I don't know.
18.CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?
I can try.
19.HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?
Duh.
20.ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD?
Sadly yes.
21.DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUALPENCIL SHARPENERS?
I use the knife.
22.IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
Might be lei.
23.DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
They're as cursive as they'll ever be.
24.WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?
Sea water.
25.WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "ILOVE U"?
Yesterday.
26.IS ELVIS PRESLEY STILL ALIVE?
UH HUH.
27.DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?
Er. No?
28.ARE BLONDES DUMB?
I was a blonde once, and will be again, so definitely NOT.
29.DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
Izk
30.IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?
Nahz.
31.WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?
Yesterday.
32.DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?
Both.
33.(i've changed the qn! wahaha)DOES ICECREAM MAKE U HAPPY?
Comfort food yeah.
34.ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK
No.
35.WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?
My phone, my blog, my best friend, my friends, my mom and sleep. LOL.
36.CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?
Crunchy!
37.(i've changed the qn again! hahaha) DO YOU LIKE ICE CREAM?
DUH!!
38.HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN ANAMBULANCE?
Yes.
39.ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
Nope.
40.WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR EYE?
Brown.
41.DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?
Currently no. But usually yes.
42.LIQUOR OR BEER?
Both.
43.ARE YOU A SCIENTIST?
HAH.
44.HATE..
Not being replied too and coughs.
45.LOVE..
Rain, sleep, best friend, friends, cats, mommyyyy and ice cream.
46.DID YOU ENJOY TODAY?
No, i'm feeling a little low.
47.DO U MISS SOMEONE?
Yes my best friend!!!!! My design peeps!!
48. (i've added my own question!!!)WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO?
Next book out and a sms.
49. (i've added another question!!!)DO YOU LIKE ICE CREAM?
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50. WHAT KIND OF ICECREAMS DO YOU LIKE?
Ben and Jerry's.
"...why is that so..."
I Say.
I'm in a severe well let's not say the word depression hmm, reallllyyy down; i think. It has come to a time where you can finally see changes and yearning back for what it used to be. I've had a terrible week. Somehow terrible for what i went through. Not only does the fever bug kicks in, the rush of activities and missing the loved ones, best friend and my friends surpresses my positive energy.
I've always tried to look up for another day full of happiness but halfway throughout the day, the smile falls out and the sadness waves in. Man, i'm trying hard to cover it up which i really think i did a good job for that bleahz, but it's just killing me from the inside. I have bunkmates that are the incarnations of satan (well that sounded harsh, but i dun give a damn), i have activities and obstacles to go through daily hoping that i could go through it positively, i have a heart that really misses everyone to the core from my mother to my cats to my best friend to the entire world. A fever that again doubles the surpression og my positive energy.
I feel like i can't give out the best in my camp and i get distracted easily.
I want to meet my best friend. I really do.
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I want to meet the friends. I really do.
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I hope and pray everything will run back to square one. Haiz. My fatigue level is almost tops. I'll hold it down.
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*takes a deep breath*
"...don't let this change what it used to be..."
Running Nose and Woes
I'm sick of the lame jokes they make.
I'm sick of upon hearing their incorrigible conversations.
I'm sick of the lies they make.
I'm sick of their selfish attitudes.
I'm sick of it all.
Damn it. They're born selfish and a lazy bone in them that devours their entire bodies. GRR.
Thank god for the weekends, i'm back home. But i'm still on the calling list as a reserve for the guard duties, why me? because some of my damn bunk mates would rather report sick even they are not or even lie and put on a pityful pathetic face in order they can have the damn weekends to themselves. To hell with you guys. Caniving little brats they are.
It was a miserable week i had with back to back activities, an everlasting coughs and sneezes with little rest. I'VE YET TO COMPLAIN in camp. But those imbeciles would complain at even the slightest thing. I'm the last one to turn in for bed because of the few thousand decibles of snores that would last the entire night. AND YET THEY ARE ASSURED THEIR REST WASN'T ENOUGH OR PEACEFUL. Screw you la.
Please let me have a nice weekend. *prays hard*
Tanyan's pageant is up tonight. I'm going provided i can get in contact on who's going la. Physically tired la. I shall read a book now.
"...if only..."
