And till it comes.
I'll blog a conclusive entry about "O-Six" this monday i guess. The good and the bad. The ups and the downs and definitely, the thank you's. Well, i shall save such entry till it is about time.
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I've planted a smile that is hard to erase.
I've planted a smile in my heart.
Thanking everything that had come my way.
Because, i've planted a smile in my heart.
"...diamonds in the sun..."
Attack of The Disease
I'm having weird aches in my chest and serious heart burns. Someone kill me. Plus, i have a fever and a throat that is swelling up. RAH RAH RAH RAH. I just woke up from a nice rest feeling very sore. Shit. I hate feeling sick, your body aches, it really aches at every single bone you have in your body. I drank tea, warm tea but i don't know why it doesn't feel any better. Then again, who says tea is the remedy of all pain?
I feel miserable. I can't even sleep through the night peacefully. Each moment i toss and turn, i hurt a muscle or isit a a joint? Whatever it is, it sucks.
ARGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
The doctor gave hell alot of medications, but seriously by looking at them makes me even more sick. But then again, that was the polyclinic doctor who was really nice and gave me a thorough check. Who was actually really concerned about me.
I was really sick yesterday but the doctor at CGH was really mean. Shall i type out his name? Well whatever it is he was in consultation Room 6. He was really really mean. No one knows my body well than i am right? He claims, i wanted an mc because of a long weekend, but fuck to him i am feeling sore like shit. And guess what medicine he gave me, panadol and bonjela. Thank you very much. THANK YOU VERY MUCH DOCTOR. Let me see, as qualified as you are as a doctor but you don't deserve to treat you patient bad. So what, if i receive free treatments because i am working under government, doesn't mean everyone that visits the doctor wants to get a free day off from work. LIKE HELLO, i am friggin' sick here and you came to tell me off. Like whatever man.
Let me tell you one thing, you're a jerk. Nonetheless, an even bigger one because you're a doctor. Doctors are good creatures who saves lives not make one even more miserable. So what if you're a scholar or so, i repeat, the humanity in you is useless and full of absurd thinking of the negative side of the society. You are no good soul yourself to say others trying their stints and ways to get out of work. You don't know your patients body. You judge one by only the description they give. And just because i work in the army doesn't mean i am one of those who wants to skip work to go out and have fun.
You filthy creature thinks, everyone in the world is selfish, look at yourself first. Fancy, calling yourself a doctor. You are no god, you are no where close to god. The white jacket you wearing is a mere mask. The status doctor, is a mere status because you don't deserve it. No sense of dignity and pride, but instead too full of pride that it eats you up in the inside and you don't even know it. Scolding me yesterday, and giving me lecture is somewhere not to your level. So what if everyone goes through army, I MEAN HELLO, i am friggin' sick here and the last thing i need was a lecture from a doctor. FUCK YOU LAR.
You can go on living your life as a doctor for all i care. No one knows your inhumanity except the dude up there. Carry on, Mr Doctor person you judge too much on the cover. Justice will be served.
Hmph.
I just ate my medications, so now i'm gonna try to rest my head with my aching body. ARGH ARGH.
"...boohoo..."
Warm Fuzzy Feeling
I'm feeling all warm and fuzzy inside. Which is really good. =) I love the feeling. Especially accompanied with such weather, the right moment for me to snuggle up under my comforters and drift away to my every so dear dreamland. Hoping and praying not to wake up from it but darn, i have to face work tomorrow with a field pack inspection! What a bummer!! But then again, this doesn't beat my warm fuzzy feeling i have now hehe. *giggles*. Ok bluek. The giggle thingie came rather random i felt really mushy bout it, so yes, BLUEK.
I chatted with my brother earlier in the day. It is so good to see him online, i mean really. When was the last time appeared on MSN, totally eons ago. So bumping into him was really good, well not bumping la, just that seeing his cheery MSN nick appeared online in my MSN window was really good. Chatted as what we brothers do. =) Cool man. Jason jason, i know you've tried flying, don't have to be literal about it la, it's just parachuting. MAHAHA. Yah right, i don't even have the friggin' guts to do so. So com'on give it up to my best friend jumping from a plane whyyyy up there!
*applause*
The highest destination of me jumping out of somewhere maybe was from my old school double decker deck i used to have when i was young. Ok let me rephrase it, when i was young-ER. I mean, i am 21 now. Pretty young. I guess. Only the numerals 2 and 1. Not big of deal. BUT WAIT. That is like 2 decades and a year. Now when i say it like that, i must say. I AM FRIGGIN' OLD!!! HELP RAH RAH. Positivity izk, positivity... i am only 21, nothing just 21. Think positive izk.
*smacks forehead really hard!*
Christmas is not over yet ok!! Ever heard of the song, 12 days of Christmas?!?! It's only the 2nd DAY and it's boxing day.. which is ending soon too, and comes the 3rd of Christmas. BUT STILL, the joyous occassion still lingers in me. How i wish, hopes, pray God would turn back the hands of time again and let me relive my Christmas party at the Oriental last Saturday again. It was so good and memorable. It was traditional yuletide celebrated with thy lovedly friends. It doesn't get any better than that. Though food ran pretty low, FAST that night. Thanks Anny for standing by the buffet counter over and over again. LOL
*stares sharply at anny*
Currently, i am packing my field pack for my inspection and i got sick of it because the sudden warm fuzzy feeling engulfed me thoroughly. Humpity dumpity dope! Tralala. Ok, as i jingle and wriggle myself to the joyous homely fuzzy feeling, i shall prance around dancing and hopefully wings will grow from my back and let me flutter in the air with the warm fuzzy feeling in me.
*jumps with joy!*
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Anyway, toodleloo!
"...i want to be a fiery fairy!..."
Click here for more photos of "A Christmas Affair"
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My small Christmas party at the Oriental Hotel Suite was a bomb! With the theme: Rich and Glamorous, everyone actually dresses up accordingly. Which left me, the host; extremely elated. I was looking like a Hongkong Tycoon as what the rest said but i love love love love what i wore.
Thanks to my mom the food was great of course i helped, like duh. I serve:
-Tomato based pasta-
-Carved turkey with mushroom & chestnut stuffing with cranberry gravy-
-Assorted sushi's-
-Roasted black pepper beef-
-Stuffed soft shell crab with scallops-
-Baked dory with lemon and herbs-
-Grilled prawns with garlic
-Fruit tarts-
-Chocolate Xmas log cake-
-Pink champagne wannabes-
-Sparkling grape juice-
-Red wine-
Obviously, the photo doesn't serve any justice. LOLEverything else was done by me and my mom the night before except for the fruit tarts and the log cake. So i do not have a decent photo of the spread because the camera came way after everyone had dug into fiestty feast so yes. Maybe i'll just annoy those with cameras and actually bug them for ultimate photos.
Anyway, the whole night was wonderful. It's a party full of classy glamorous looking people, with flutes of bubbly and beautiful outfits. Laughter and joy filled the air. Especially, when i gave out their presents. =) The screams filled the hotel room which neighbouring guests might mistook it as someone being rape. But then again, one doesn't scream "OH MY GOODDDD!" when raped. Oh well. Anyway, i gave them presents whom somewhat i think suits them, or what i thought i did or at least it's a great buy! MAHA
Jason - A puma watch
Wei Min - A sweet diamond pendant
Rongsen - Creative Mp3 player 512mb
Airin - Creative Mp3 player 512mb
Liyana - Creative Zen V plus 1 Gb
Denise - A sweet diamon pendant
Serene - A nail polish gift set
Anny - Grapeseed Bodyshop gift pack
Victoria - Famous amos gift tin
Tanyan - Whitemusk Bodyshop exclusive gift set
Faridah - Creative Portable Speakers
Jill - Funky topshop notebook
Esther - Strawberry Bodyshop gift box
Well, i got them those =) Happy shiny people they are. HAHA. I received such a sweetttt puzzle with a suchhh a sweet message from Denise, and and chocolates and wine from Ty. Oh i received a photobook of my friends. Which i was moved to tears!! sort of. heh Controlled it la, dress glam glam le. Anyway, they saw it from one of my blog posting and they actually DID IT! Sacrificing their nights away for that glorious yet sentimental piece of book. Boo. I'm loud, foul mouthed, eats like a pig and yet i received such a touching present. I don't deserve such people. *whimpers.
The whole christmas event was great. The Oriental Hotel was a wonderful host. It adds the glamourous sparkle into the whole event. I loved it.
-Bro, love u alot for being my brother. Absence makes the heart grows fonder bro. Hearts always. Love love!
-Friends, my god love love love love love love u guys like really!! *tears.
"...it's christmas time..."
A Fantabolous Yuletide.
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A season of giving and caring,
With moments filled with happiness and joy.
Strings of laughters and cheers,
With the choruses of love and care.
Christmas is here once more.
But 2006 Christmas was treasured ever more.
A Christmas Affair tops it all,
Happy Holidays to my loved ones and all.
"...a really huge love and hugs this season to my brother jason and all my lovely friends..."
----happy holidays and have a merry christmas!----
Comfy Comfy
I mean really, don't all of you think the weather now is superb! It is to me, the closest thing to winter hurhur. I can't ask for more; well maybe snow but yes the weather now is uber comfy. I can hear the eskimoes squaggling here for a holiday, that includes the polars and penguins, Hello to the happy feet people. Welcome to the somewhat sunny island of Singapore.
Anyway, I am pretty bored and i am on leave tomorrow onwards until Tuesday. Lovely. It's more to ecstacy. Heh, i've got a long weekend, a great Christmas party to attend and many more. Hello to such short vacation. I mean, yes i am so excited for this weekends that even my wriggly toes are wriggling in joy!! I met some of my oldies just now for some usual pre-Christmas nonsensical fun. Which again, will happen as a post-Christmas fun next week. Hohoho. Going crazy was whacked enough earlier let alone next week. I'm curious enough to actually find out what will happen next week. Last Christmas, i stuff powder inside Syam's bike and played Dog and Bone in the pool. We'll see what Ilyana's will have instore for us. I guess it'll be at Daniel's or Alex's house this year. Since both of them just forgoodness sake moved to NASSIM ROAD. MY GOD RICH ARSES. ARGH. I WANT TO MOVE THERE TOO.
Where the friggin' path into the house is like my 24km route march, ok sorry for the exaggeration maybe 12km. LOL. And the lawn is huge enough to actually roll around 3,354,324 times before u reach the edge. Man lucky people.
My turn will come, i hope. Anyway, i did some Christmas shopping and i hope my guests this Saturday would love the gifts i bought them. It's nothing much cause i'm on a budget it's from the heart yeah. =) Love love. Let me see what's going on tv.
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Okaye nothin' much. Shall i hit the sack? The bed is comfy enough since the weather is now on my side. Yippeee dooodaaaa!!
ok bye.
"...mistletoe..."
I LOVE THE WEATHER. IT'S THE CLOSEST THING TO WINTER NOW!! YAY TO THE WORLD!!
Youch*
Ok i tore my ligament. And it hurts hell alot. I swore my clumsy traits is somewhat i wish I WOULD not have in my new resolution next year. I climbed a ladder last night to fix something and clearly my stupidit and carelessness makes me loose a step and make this whole tub of lard comes tumbling down like a dumpling into a drain. With that, i tore my ligament. Causing a huge pain, and this is no good you know why? Christmas is around the corner which is equivalent to excessive shopping and walking. Hmph!
I sold my duty today because of a wedding. Which technically, it rained the whole day. Holy matrimony plus holy drenched. Rah. I came home and snuggled again because who couldn't resist such comforting weather!! I just woke up and i am off to bed again soon because i totally forgot i have work tomorrow. Looking forward for the coming Friday because i am going to have a long weekend because i'm on leave for 5 freaking days!! Thank you god!! Plus next week, due to the lovely holidays, i have another longer weekend! Yip! =)
I had a lovely dinner yesterday. I had Korean food thanks to Serene. Never had i tasted Korean dinner but Crystal Jade's Korean dinner was a bomb. Uber yum. Ginseng chicken to the max plus nice REALLY nice rice thingie. And to what i think is that, it's the most healthiest dinner i've had so far heh.
Great dinner and great stuff. Now, great weather and a great good night's rest. Twiddleo's people.
"...hold on la..."
I am so Christmassy this year and i have no clue why. My itunes are blasted with Christmas music. And i love it. Just one thing, i wish it would snow. Hurhur. Okaye. Tv and sleep now.
*edited @ 1101pm*
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CSI was so good. Period. Anyway, that wasn't what i want to blog about. All i want to say is that i am at the verge of shooting myself. My mind is a whirlpool that sucks the hell out of me with all these knitty gritty unwanted problems not caused by me and HOWEVER, i always becomes the victim even by staying out of it and shutting up. From family to even work BUT i am glad for one thing; my friends wasn't part of the reason of my suicidal thoughts. That is why at this very moment, i heart them to the core. Rah.
Rah rah. I've got a life now where everything tends to clash at the same times ESPECIALLY work + family issues. Uh huh, pretty much right now, i wished everyday was the weekends where i could recuperate with my friends over a cup of coffee or a meal. And that's where nothing else happens but ultimate goodness and happiness. Okaye, i need to admit this, my family members, not all, some of them are pretty screwed. Well in particularly one family, not naming who but yes, they are the scrooge of christmas plus an arse that practically everyone hates. Technically me la. LOL. Anyway, i ain't close to them anyway but the family issues pertaining me and mum is always an issue for most of my family members. *shrugs*
They come to you when you at your wealthiest point, but again shrugs away when you are at your lowest. Typical drama. Just typical. Hah, i guess sometimes my generation of cousins most of them are pretty away from my frequency and sometimes i would rather not fine tune it to be like them. I like me. Not them. Hmph. They're quite scoundrels and hypocritical. But i guess everyone is hypocritical, tell me when did you not hate anyone and not talked about them ever? Hah. You got to admit it; NEVER. HAHA. So yah, point proven; hypocritism is just the main line of all. Anyway before i get carried away with all my relentless issues; i need to get things straight. I have no problem with most of my family members only SOME of them which causes a wreck in my life. When the smell of wealth banishes their pride and dignity. Hmph.
Wei Min told me the other day that i need to blog about happy things because if not my blog is pretty cold this Christmas. Contradicting (cold/christmas??) mahaha anyway. So yah. Happy things. Happy things. NOTHING BEATS BEING HAPPY when it's CHRISTMAS. HOHOHO. Mistletoes. And yes i am ranting again on how muchhhhhhhhhhhh i love this festive season. But i can't help it. I REALLY DO!! hurhur
-My christmas wishlist-
(1) At least i want something from BAPE
(2) A silver printed on black mesh cap
(3) More stuffs from Revoltage, tees, caps, etc
(4) An island of my own, i mean yeah ain't cool to own your own island like Oprah!!??
(5) I want a picture book of me and my friends. I mentioned this earlier before didn't i?
(6) A Ben Sherman knitted sleeveless top
(7) My DKNY perfume, that pretty green apple thing. OK i admit, i have a fetish for girl's perfume. Sorry la what to do, i like the smell of female glands on mine. MAHAHA.
Okaye i can't think of anything else yet. LOL
So yes goodnight and go.
"...i heard santa on the radio..."
Oh My Friggin' God
Okaye, Girls Out Loud is one trashy show. But apparently, it is horrendously and ridiculously funny. Then again, how stupid can a show be. So Wendy is in it, and apparently; she should just rather stick to her blogging. But i gotta admit, the whacky stuff in the show is pretty funny, and i sorta liked it. Ok slap me, such a bimbotical show but who cares? HAHAHAHA.
It's amazing on how crappy tv shows could actually make a debut. Ok, that aside let me rant more about today. Okaye, i miss Zoukout already. Grr. It was good, it was so good. Man man man. More of it though. My throat is a little sore and geez, i have no clue why. Another boring day at work, and i'm looking forward for my leave this friday. The boring thing is that, i have a Sunday duty. Like what bummer ain't it? GAR.
2 more weeks to christmas. Holly mistletoe. =) How i wish, the daily raindrops we received were actually snowflakes. As they gently falls on my cheeks, such great winter wonderland. A true white christmas in the tropics. To make snow angels and snowmen with the crooked carrot as it's nose, ah; a little boy dream; my dream =))
How fun-tastic it could be. Snow digging never i knew how tedious it could be but to have with snowball attacks will be the ultimate. Holly Yuletide.
Singapore is sun, sun and more sun. Tropical as it is because we're located damn near the friggin' equator. Swell. =P Ok, i mean i like the weather in Singapore but it could better if the four seasons were part of our climate. How swell is that?! Winter wear, summer wear, spring wear and even the god damn autumn wear. Okaye, another entry full of rubbish. Off to sleep i go.
"...ho ho ho..."
The utimate bomb, Zoukout 2006. It was so good that it left me whimpering in tears. Yes, the line up songs at the house and R&B arenas were so good this year that i left the damn spot at 7 friggin' am today. I partied all night long with my lovelies. Yes, design people unites where all hell breaks loose and the party-all-night-long became our middle names.
Check out Me, Jill and Jason in Mtv i guess it's MTV, when we were filmed during Zoukout. Nothing beats partying tremendously especially like yesterday's Zoukout. MAN it wa s da bomb. Okie i still have achin' feet though. But yeah, feast your eyes on the pictorials above. Man, i miss those people already. Hah!
"...supper..."
Stumble Upon
A western philosopher once said this. Women, dazzling diamonds and glitteringjewellery have won your illusory majesty but whats left around you is a snobbish person. The odour of arrogance an alluring but fatal fragrance. Women when you once again salute wealth, hail fame and extol power, please do not ask about the thrush which sang to you asit has all flown away because it has sung itself hoarse. The golden voice has perishedfor the sake of its real dignified soul.
Nah, i'm not downgrading the wealth and fame that opposite sex could garner. I was just watching Meteor Garden I Mhahahaha! Got that extract from the show. Ok bye.
"...pay is in!..."
Tis' The Season To Be Jolly
Okaye, dickinson, sorta made tickle with laughter with that video. Okaye, pardon my blog song, but just press stop to hear the MTV. As much as i love christmas, trashy Janice enjoying the mistletoes is much better, i guess heh. Hello to the materialistic world, nothing does it better than good ol' diva oh bitch, Janice. Oh well, her tranny trashy video of hers really implicates her alot aye? But still, its quite uber entertaining.
So much angsty before, so much pain before. Put that aside, i want to celebrate the month with full of joy. It's a much delighted period, where turkey's roasts, mistletoes mistle, lights lighted. Hohoho. I love this season, mighty well alot.
Other than that, tomorrow is the much anticipated ZOUK OUT. Like hello PARTAYE. Yes. Very much anticipated. =) Ok a gazellion smiles for me. I'll be meeting Liy and Airin for some fishin' and co-in' tml for lunch and head off to meet the rest of my people for the partaye. Hello to offensive and abhoringly major dancing. Hurhur.
Okie, it's weekend. I'm again happy with my weekend. Because, it's the period where i'm free from camp shitz. It's friday night and i shall embrace it with pleasure. What's more, pay is coming in. How delightful but still painful because i've still got some stuff to settle. Oh well, positivity should over rule everything else.
Let me see. Ok for now, i'll just end the blog entry here. But i guess look forward for more yeah. Cheerios mighty people!
"...2 big breasts..."
MY LIFE IS IN A MESS
Scream! (edited 1156pm)
At the top of my lungs, i feel like screaming till the darn grass cracks. I have no clue why. But tell me again, why am i stuck in this filthy world. RAH RAH RAH. Oh well negativity put aside (i guess, i can't help it but it's killing me!) -that was pretty confusing but nevermind la, i shall just keep it among my family for now.
Positivity on the rise. Christmas christmas. Ok i love christmas.
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Ok crap, i'll continue blogging later. I see a letter that i refuse to open but i have too.
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Go away lawyers!
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I'm tangled up. I think i am. I've got so much to do yet so little time. When such agonising moments like these, time passes by even more faster. Here you are sitting miserably, wanting time to go back, but as you see the minute hands accelerates even faster than usual. Nothing, i repeat nothing seemed to be in the right track nowadays. The word fear overcomes me. Fear off? Almost everything. Paranoia overruled at times. I barely sleep at night due to certain work and family issues. Crazy policies that's making me, dumbfoundedly; crazy.
These upmost issues that bombards both brain and heart are just nonsensical and unreasonably useless and heart pounding. I won't mention the issues here because it'll be to far-fetched and i'm to lazy to type. But i shall complain of all the miserable things in the world beause you know why? I'm stuck in this stupid world and life is a chore now.
The body daily wakes up and head to work, where dread lies. In the evening where the head lies, but the sleep sometimes succumbed to nightmares and thunders in the mind. I'm deranged. I'm sick. I'm tired. Possibly, suicidal thoughts at the moments are on the verge of implementation. But again, i cherish life even though hell is now what i am living in. If anyone asked what is hell like? Do come knocking at my door aye.
The greens makes the world go round. And the rounds it made, doesn't end. As much as money is the roots of all evil in the world but to some, it's the roots of happiness and freedom. Some need it to carry on in life. To settle problems where only money is the solution. To some, money is everything where, without it you die and giving some to others is a HUGE issue. One can't be too selfish with cash because, afterall you started the same; craving and wanting cash before. Hard earned cash should be settled immediately. Cause, to some; cash should be earned via working out the sweats because earning it is a bonus of appreciation. One should be appreciated, wisely to a context that is.
Alright enough now. I'm tired of everything. The End.
"....so long and goodbye...."
"...holy mistletoe..."
As Promised (But Still a fraction of it)
Gees, i have no clue why the photos a slightly pixelated. After using blogger beta, my hello photo thing doesn't work. Rah RAH. I was blog surfing, and came across Mich's blog. Her blog is always a good read, with her remarkable approach of the language. And yes it is a good thing. And sis, send me my birthday photos, the group photos and all ARE GORGEOUS, and YOU LOOK GORGEOUS YOURSELF. HAHA. =)
Me, Michelle and Jason, used to hang out so much together in the past, which i really truly miss. So after graduation, all of us went our separate ways but i really hope we could actually have one of those moments again. Moments, often accompanied with either pratas at Simpang for supper or Butterfly's by the pool. Those were really the days, when we were somewhat, carefree. Hurhur. Well, one day i hope.
Being carefree now, is pretty different because for me being in the military life, being carefree and joyful seemed to be a chore. I suppressed it in me until the weekends where I'm at least free from the hands of the army to enjoy my civilian life. Where, i sit back during the weekends, to sleep in, coffee in town, indulgence of sinful delicacies, a little shopping, practically, a slight pamper-ation of sorts to at least satisfy my inner desires to actually be as carefree as i was before.
When the weekends comes to an end, the frown on my face grows incredibly bigger. What a bummer. I can't do anything but to live it through for another year and half. I miss studying. I really do and i am so gonna do so once I've completed my dreadful NS. As much BMT was an experience and a memorable one, but the life as a private puts everything down. Boohoo. Well, at least once the weekends are over, I've got another fun filled weekends to look forward too, and another, and another and it goes on =) I ought to put my heads up high, if i regard every other NS days miserable, it'll be hell for me. I know I'll survive it.
I had a chat with Jason yesterday, pretty much a fulfilling sort. CAUSE we best friends missed each other tremendously and chatting on MSN(he is not computer orientated because of NS!!) was really good. Hopefully more times to come. In conclusion, both of us are already sick of army. Anyway, i shall end this entry.
To the bed, before another work day starts.
"....to them, to my iad family, i want a reunion...."
